I WAS BROWSING THROUGH MY PEEKS,
& I MISS MY OLD HAIR BADLY.
I WANT BACK MY LONGER HAIR.









PLUS, I MISS MY HIGH CUT NIKES.
SOME FUCKER STOLE IT. DIE, FUCKER, DIE.

Sorry haven't been blogging!
The weekends was great.
I love spending time with my baby.

Saturday, I met Eugeybaby after she shopped.
We chilled around in Orchard for a while.
In the evening, we headed to bestie Shu's new house.
Everyone was all there. Mindi, Nick, Rosy and all.
Hahaha, played cards and went to eat prata!
OH, PLUS WE PRANKED STEVEN LIM. PLEASE SAY YOU KNOW WHO IS HE.
THE WEIRD PERVERTIC GUY ON S'PORE IDOL THAT LOVES STRIPPING.
It was fucking funny. He's a despo, thats for sure.
After that, it was getting late & baby was really tired.
So I sent Eugeybaby to Yishun then came back to Shu's house.
Everyone went home, except me! Hahaha.
Didn't wanna leave bestie alone in her house, she scared got GHOST.
Haha we talked and talked till we're tired and went to bed.
Got up the next morning at 8 and left for home.

After a long tuition on Sunday, i was about to die.
Until I met up with Eugeybaby. Suddenly ain't tired anymore!
Hahaha, brought her to Botanic Gardens.
We walked around then sat down and talked about stuff.
I wish we could spend more time together that night.
Baby, I love you.

Today after dental, went to meet Eugeybaby at Gil's house.
I had to pretend I was AmandaG's brother. LIKE WTH.
Hahaha but it was damn funny watching Amanda and her weird horny dancing moves.
After that, headed for dinner together and went home.
Euge, i'm sorry i couldn't sent you home.
Sigh. My mum isn't happy about me going out so often.
HOW NOW BROWN COW. THIS SUCKS.

When I'm with you, my worries are washed away.
Everything feels so great with you around.
I just wanna say this again that,
I'll never leave you. NEVER.
My feelings for you will never change,
it only grows stronger and stronger.
Remember the promises that I've made?
I won't break it, I cross my heart, I won't.
Believe me baby, I'll prove it to you.
I will always be here waiting for you,
no one will ever replace you in my heart.
NO ONE AT ALL. I love you, Euge.

SIMPSONS THE MOVIE WITH EUGEYBABY WAS GREAT!
HAHAHAHA IT WAS SOOOO FUUUUCCKINGGG FUUUNNNYYYY.
I'm glad we both had superduper fun.
Oh, something embarrassing happened before the movie.
Hahaha, we both went into the wrong toilets.
I misleaded her and ended up, I going to the ladies & she going to gents.
Damn scary and stupid lah. Ahhh I still remember the look on that lady's face when i entered the toilet. Hahahaha!

"Call me crazy or silly, but I'll still love you."

Studied at MOS at J8 with bestie Shu, Gillian & Eugeybaby.
My dear, I'm really sorry for smoking ya.
I won't do it again, i promise you.
Cross my heart on that, never will it be broken.
I <3 you babe.

Bestie wedgied me, damn pain lah. Surrendered my pack to her.
Hahaha. THEN SHE CRUSHED MY CIGGIES IN FRONT OF ME :0
But i know you meant well for me, thanks bestie.

NO MORE SMOKING. NO MORE DRINKING.
FULLSTOP.

"I will be by your side, always."

I'm so bored now.
Done with my school work.
Now just stoning on the net.
I know I should be like studying,
but i've no idea where to start.
2 months to the fyes, thats pretty scary.

I'M MISSING YOU SO BADLY.

Things could just take it's turn in a split second.
Well, life's so unpredictable.
Moments with you felt ever so sweet,
those memories would be buried deep down in my heart,
never ever will it be forgotten.
Vivid images of you flash through my mind all the time,
i've been missing you throughout the day.
I'm trying my best to do what I can to pull through this,
can i do it or not,
i really don't know.
I hate the way things are like now,
everything's in a mess,
things will never be the same without you.
Please don't go baby, don't leave.
I will always be here waiting for you to come back in my arms again.

"To my dearest,
no one could ever replace you,
I love you."

As I sit here thinking of you,
I just wish I'm with you now to see how you're doing.
I'm really worried for you babe.
Hope you get well soon honey.
<3

Good morning.
I feel much better after waking up this morning.
I think my fever has subsided, but i guess i should rest at home.
Ytd, I went out with Euge baby eventhough having the fever.
Hahaha. It was uncomfortable actually.
But as long i'm with her, anything else doesn't matter.
Plus the stupid rain had to spoil my plans.
So we headed to J8's MOS to chill out.
I love you sweetie <3

"Darling, you got to stay strong."

Ytd, met up with Euge babe outside her school!
Then headed to Bishan library.
Suppose to be studying, but ended up not.
Hahaha, I love you babe <3
I wish time would come to a stop,
and the only breathing souls are you & me,
where we could last forever.

Today was super tiring.
Shouldn't have gone to school today.
Arghh, feeling crappy now.
I think i'm having a slight fever.
Hahaha been lying on my bed since i came back from school, talking to baby on the phone <3
She kinda made me feel better though. Haha.

"Never will I let go, never."

School felt slow and terribly tiring today.
Fucked up hot weather and tiredness.
Don't feel like heading to school tml. Argh.
Dozed off while doing my maths homework just now.
Hahaha, I think it was pretty dumb.
BLOODY MOTHERFOOKING BLOGSKIN IS LAGGING ON ME.
WANNA CHANGE ALSO CANNOT. GRRRR.

"I miss you."

I <3 You Baby.

Today was so so so so fun.
Haha. After school, headed to meet Amanda & Euge to study.
But ended up like joking and fooling around more!
Damn funny lah. AMANDA YOU RETARD. HAHAHAHA.
Then it was getting late, so I took a bus with babe to yishun.
We took a long walk to Yishun Park. It was great (: I love you.
After that, I walked her to Esso. Then she helped me cab for taxi!
Whoa, damn fast. She wave for the first time and suddenly one taxi stopped.
Haha, cause my baby's so hot and sexy. The taxi driver's eyes pop out i tell you!

"Stay close with me, baby."

Ahhhh. I'M SO AWFULLY BORED ON A BLOODY SUNDAY.
Jealous jealous jealous, cause babe's watching Harry Potter now.
While I'm stoning in front of my comp. Stone. Stone. Stone.
I wanna get some stuff done online, but internet's lagging out of a sudden!
Curse you fuckers who's stealing my network. Curse. Curse. Curse.
Suppose to be doing my DNT project, but my mood is off today.
Boo. Boo. Boo.

“When everything falls apart,
And you really don’t know what to do,
Just look inside your heart and see,
There in a special place, I’ll always be.”

"I wanna hold you tight in my arms,
And never let go. Never ever.
You mean so much to me, so so much.
If being with you means giving up everything in this world,
I'm willing."

Friday the 13th ended up to be true.
An unlucky day in school, someone lost his bloody handphone.
Whole class had to be suddenly searched.
2 close buddies of mine got busted for possession of cigs.
LIKE W-T-F. Hopefully it turns out well soon.
Then after that, went to meet sweetie (:
Although for a short while only, but as long as i could see her, it's alright.
Found out that Clare and Aly was there too, so went to meet them.
Haha escorted Clare to the mrt, then took a bus to CH's house.
CHILL OUT, WASTE TIME, SKATE AROUND, STEAL SOME SWEETS FROM NTUC, DANCED TO SOME CLUBBING MUSIC, AND BLAHBLAHBLAH. Haha, kinda fun actually.
And now, back home. Stoning. Thinking. Boring.

"You mean so much more to me than I've ever imagined."

I don't wanna do my compo. I'm so lazy and tired.
Gosh, my sister promised to write for me. But she's busy.
Plus, I've got to study for a SS test tml :(
And eventually, I find myself looking through all the photos in my computer.
I MISS SOMEONE SO BADLY. ARGGGHHHH.
Oh wells, back to my stinking work.

It's alright babe.
I know and i believe,
That one day, the fear would vanish forever.
I've thought about it,
You're all that i wanted,
You're all that i need.
I'll wait, wait and wait,
As long as it takes,
Just to be with you.
My feelings are true,
And i know it'll always be.
No matter what happens,
I'll be there for you babe, always.
I want to be the one that you could lean on,
The one that you could rely on,
The one that you could count on,
I'll show you i'll be the one.

"143, my dear" X million billion zillion gazillion infinity.

Ytd was the most fucked day in my life.
Got wasted naked in the bathroom, fucking puking my ass off.
I guess it all numbs the pain somehow.
I feel much better today. Babe msged me.
And I don't think i'll touch the vodkas for the time being.
The drinks ytd made my tummy grew bigger.
School today was so-so, I was just stoning throughout.
All that's present in my mind is you.

I can't bear to give up,
I'm sorry, but i can't.
I hate things the way it is now,
I need you, I miss you,
Please don't say it's over,
Give me a chance in this please.
I stopped smoking, I'll stop drinking,
I'll do anything just to be with you.
I'm willing all just for you,
I'll risk all that i've got in this.
I just can't let go,
You mean alot to me.
You mean too much to me.

I'M FUCKING DRUNK NOW AND I WANNA FUCKING DIE ON THE SPOT NOW CAN'T SOMEONE JUST TAKE THE GLASS BOTTLE AND SMASH MY FUCKING HEAD I FEEL FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP I NEED MORE FUCKING VODKA

I won't sit down and pretended that nothing has happened
I'm sitting all alone in my dark room
Tears are rolling down my cheeks
I've never felt this fucked up before
I pace around my room feeling terribly lost
All that i've wanted so badly is now gone
I guess it's over although how reluctant i am
The memories of you stay close to me, forever it will
For these few days, i don't think i can be myself
My heart feels cold, i feel cold
It's as though a part of me is gone
Without you babe, i will never be the same again
Just what the fuck am i going to do
How do i get myself out of this, how do i get over this
I don't think i can fucking do it, i can't
Even if i have all the time in the world, i'm scared i can't
I'll never blame you in any way at all
You'll always be someone special in my heart
It's never a mistake falling for you
I really do do do like you alot, LIKE ALOT
No matter what, i'm always here for you
I don't give a fuck about anything now, except you
I just want you to be alright
I hope things for you would get better
Well as for me, I really don't know
Just don't worry about me alright

If you're reading this.
I just wanna say,
You take good care of yourself okay,
Although i wanna be there for you so badly,
But i guess we both need our time alone

I promised you i won't smoke, and i'll keep that promise
But i can't help but to drink my sorrows away
If it makes me feel better
I'll drink till i vomit my heart out

143, babe.
Goodbye my love.

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

I almost couldn't get my ass off bed this morning.
My eyes felt so heavy. I guess I somehow feel awfully tired.
School today was boring. Plain boring.
Wanted to head home actually. But there were important lessons.
My mind was rather empty except for certain things.

I stare at my papers, I see you.
I stare at the whiteboard, I see you.
I look at my teacher, I see you.
It's like an image in my head that repeats over and over.

My dear,
Call me crazy, call me a fool.
But I believe that dreams come true.
Rushing will never come in the picture,
For now and ever, I'll be patiently by your side.
Slow and steady, I'll pray so hard,
That in the end, my chance would shine.

Fuck, I don't feel so good.

I can't seem to function properly.

Time for emo songs & day-dreaming.

Byebye.

I'm feeling rather tired now ):
School was rather slack today. I LIKE IT.
I was apparently worried for someone.
I couldn't concentrate at all.
And I miss someone badly.

XXXX,
I will never let you fall,
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

A sunday with tons of work pouring all over me.
I'm trying my best to complete it all.
But my mind's drifting away, I miss you badly.
Whatever happened ytd felt so good, & I don't want it to end.
Haha Transformers owns i tell you! The robots are cool shit.
MeganFox is one hot cupcake. But I think Euge's hotter, HEHEHEHE.
I love long bus rides with you.

"Don't be scared,
You'll never change what's been and gone.
May your smile,
Shine on.
Don't be scared,
Your destiny may keep you warm.
& I'll be your destiny."

Thanks for the wonderful day today babe.
I wish time will never escape us.
You mean so much more than I ever expected.
If spending a lifetime with you is possible, my life would be perfect.

School has been pretty fucked.
Homework, projects and all keep pouring in.
It's so darn stressful. @#$%^&*.
I just can't wait for the weekends.
Hahaha. Time passes though.

"I'll risk anything just to get to you."

3 hours tuition today was really tiring!
After that, met Ch, Fy and Ivan.
Gayed around a little. Then they headed home.
I went CH's house to chill.
Hahaha, practice my vocals alot today.
Hopefully able to reach the high pitch.
I was skating outside his corridor, and unexpectedly got owned.
Haha, slipped out of the skateboard and landed on my ass.
For that moment, my ass was so fucking pain.
Now there's a big blueblack! WTF.

"I'll be there for you through it all."

"It was a grave mistake.
I'm sorry, but I just couldn't help it."