If you could see inside my soul
see inside my heart
you would know how I long for you
whenever we're apart

If you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how I cherish you
how much you mean to me

The sparkle in your beautiful eyes
your smile, laugh, your touch
are just a few of many reasons
I love you oh so much

I could search the whole world over
and this I know is true
I would never find another love
like the love I found with you

Though with each new day, each sunrise
we can't know what's in store
there is one thing I know for sure
each day I love you more

There's so much thoughts in my mind now
I feel like I'm suffocating
I feel like screaming everything out
What's happening to me

Jamming ytd was great!
Haha, a form of de-stressing over the exams.

I'm now at my tutor's house.
Stayed over, waiting for him to get back for tuition.
Sighhh exams are so tiring.
I was so mad at myself for overwriting my work in the comp that I did for the past 2 hours.
Manage to get it done a while ago alr.

Gosh, I want the EOYS to hurry pass.
I want my hols! And plus good results, of course.

"First time in my life,
I'm putting all my soul into this,
You're all that's worth to me."

Come take a look at these tired eyes
Believe me i cannot even cry
If I could I would
So tell me if I should

I'm hanging here
With this rope on my neck
It's getting tighter
I can't breathe I can't breate
I need you to help me

It's a cold war at home.
Glances, frowns & dead silence.
I've been studying alot actually.
The exams are stressing and scaring me.
It's gonna be a weekend wasted on tuitions soon.

Day by day,
The moment my eyes shut,
I'm deep in my sleep,
These vivid dreams of you,
Rush through my head.

Mood's pretty upside down right now.
Kinda had a big tiff with my parents.
I'm sick of shouting my head off.
I feel like apologizing, but I don't know how.
Today's a rather bad day for me.
Exams are so soon, and yet shit had to happen.
Fuck school. I ain't going tml.
Well, everyone's busy mugging for the eoys.
I guess I'm gonna coop myself up in my room and study.

And I miss you so much honey.
I wish you're here now.

Hmmm, I need a moment alone.
My emotions are boiling through my head.
I need to calm down, or I'll go crazy again.

Life is such a bitch sometimes,
And I'm gonna slap it's bitchiness outta it,
When it irritates me.

My heart pounding in my ears

My tongue swallowed in my feet

Your eyes captivated me

Your smile could melt the snow

And bring the fallen back to life

My lungs are short of air

Words can never describe how I really feel

When I spoke those 3 words

It wasn't my voice that said it

It was my heart

And If there's a day you weren't in my mind

I'll shoot myself dead

I wish I could spill my heart out

To let you know how much you mean to me

My heart dangles on a string

Waiting for you to come

To hold it in your hands

Please don't let it slip

I'll be waiting for you

You know I'll be

These arms are always open

For you

I love you

Today's screwed up man.
Went all the way to Sembawang for tuition.
And my teacher told me to head back, tuition is cancelled.
In my mind, I was like "WTF."
After a moment, then I realised that he has a bad headache.

Gosh, social studies is sooooo superduperzxzxz BORING.
What choice do I have :( Oh wells, back to studying.

"I couldn’t live, I couldn’t breathe
Without you by my side,
Never will I let you go,
My love will never hide."

I had a bad nightmare this late afternoon.
It felt too real, I thought I was gonna die.
Someone was choking me in my dreams.

I've got not much of a mood to blog.
I just wanna shoutout 3 things.

1) Fuck, my dad's back from overseas tml.
2) Fuck the coming eoys.
3) I love you, Euge.

I love you,
I really do.
Although things aren't the best now,
But I'll do anything to make it work.
Other things need not affect me,
Cause you're only the one that matters to me.

Till the heaven above breaks,
Till time consumes us all,
Till my bones turn to dust,
Till my heart stops beating,
I'll be right here,
Keeping you safe and warm,
Watching over you like an angel.

LINN IS A PIG.
SHE LAST MIN CALL AND SAY DON'T WANNA GO OUT ALR.
CAUSE SHE'S LAZZZZYYYYY.
TSKTSK. HAHAHA.

Baby, sorry I wasn't sensitive enough.
Sorry about my thoughtless stupidity.
I didn't realise it, I didn't mean it ya.
After hitting my (censored) so many times, you must be feeling shiok ah. Hahaha.

Met up with Euge today after her tuition.
Went to town to eat and shop around!
& I think said about a thousand apologies. Haha.
Today is last day we meet till finals are over.
I'll miss her like HELL.

Deep down,
I hear something.

Deep down,
A voice is calling me.

Deep down,
It says "I love you Euge."

Deep down,
There,
In my heart.

I know you're not alright.

I'm sorry.

I feel like I can't do anything.

I'm sorry.

Get well soon okay.

I miss you alot.

And from the bottom of my heart, I love you.

Honey,
I miss you.

WAH CHATTING WITH LINNETTE ON MSN REALLY MAKES ME LMAO.
HER WEIRD SPASTIC SENSE OF HUMOUR AH. HAHAHAHAHA.
I HOPE SHE'S NOT LOOKING AT THIS NOW.

(Blood bath baby) says:
i jack you
(Blood bath baby) says:
you jane me
(Blood bath baby) says:
haahahahahahahah
(Blood bath baby) says:
GET IT GET IT
(Blood bath baby) says:
i bet you dont
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
HAHAHA
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
OMG
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
i get it la
(Blood bath baby) says:
LOL

Jack & Jane, get it?
Gosh. HAHAHAHA.

justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
any new hardcore bands to intro?
(Blood bath baby) says:
yeh
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
?
(Blood bath baby) says:
the Linn band
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
RIGHTTT
(Blood bath baby) says:
you wnana hear not
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
WHAT DO YOU THINK
(Blood bath baby) says:
yes
(Blood bath baby) says:
of cos
(Blood bath baby) says:
call 90*99*04 (sorry cannot reveal number) for your free trial now!

& I'm like W-T-F.

justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
don't be the devil
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
hahaha
(Blood bath baby) says:
studying wont get you anythingg
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
IT DOES
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
it calls studying for a reason
(Blood bath baby) says:
ahhahaha
(Blood bath baby) says:
noo
(Blood bath baby) says:
it is lying to you
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
gosh
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
you evil
(Blood bath baby) says:
nooo
justin "These city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes." says:
some encouragement pls
(Blood bath baby) says:
im an angel and you know it!

WOW. HOW ANGELIC AH.
More like.. DISCOURAGING!

Alright, time to mug!
Ta-Ta!

Sigh, I screwed up badly for this term.
Tests and assignments aren't getting along that well.
My fear for the finals is taking its toll.
I'm pretty scared. I haven't even started my revision.

During this period, I miss her alot.
But no choice, we gotta bear with it till after the exams.
Hmmm I felt so silly when I suddenly smiled during tuition.
My mind tried to concentrate but it eventually drifted away into other thoughts.

I miss you terribly.
I miss you so much.
I miss you dearly.
I miss you.
I love you.
I want you.
I need you.

I love you more than words can say,
I hope you will never ever go away.

I hope you will stay here with me
maybe then you will see

How much I love you,
How much I care.

& how much I want to always be there,
when you are hurt, when you are sad.

Seeing you happy makes me glad.
When you are mad, it makes me blue.

I only want the best for you.
My past relationships are nothing compared to this.

I can hardly wait till our next kiss.
I am certain, I am sure

That my love for you is totally pure.
You are my world, you are my life.

Maybe one day I will be your husband.
I do not know if it will last that long,
But in my heart you will always belong to me.

I give you this vow,
I will love you for the rest of time.

It is with you I want to stay,
I'll always keep a part of you with me

& wherever I am there you will be.
I cant stop loving you.

You are with me in all I do,
I love you more than words can say.

I hope you will never ever go,
I love you.

Alley, I'll miss you.
It's okay Shanna, not your fault.
Nobody expected this, it all happened so fast.
Fuck, why must he jump into the drain.
Alley Alley Alley.
Arghhh, where the fuck is he.
I'm fucking sad.



Pasta Mania!


Ben & Jerrys!
GOTCHA! Hahaha.

Catched No Reservations at Cathay.
Then headed to Newton for a feast!
After the meal, went to Bradell to drink and cut cake!
Hahaha got rather high I guess.
My head still feels slightly dizzy.


MY SWEET SIXTEEN! WHOOOOO.
CAN HAVE WILD SEX. HAH, JUST KIDDING.

I would like to thank Gil, Shanna, Shu bestie & Ian for celebrating my birthday! I had fun guys! THANKS!

& Yuanmay, thank you so much for the prezzie!



Thank you Euge for the wonderful day ytd.
I really enjoyed myself.
Thanks for Alley.
And from the bottom of my heart, I love you honey.

Every time I hear your voice,

My heart begins to race,

This happens not by choice,

But soon returns to a steady pace.

Every time I see you,

My breath cuts short.

I suddenly feel something new,

And think this must be love of some sort.

Every time I feel your touch,

I feel like I belong.

I think of so much,

And inside my heart sings a song.

Chiodos, YOU ROCK MY BALLS OFF.
Hahaha, fucking love their new album.
It's awesome stuff. Go check it out.





Just watched Jesus Camp on my comp.
I'm quite disturbed by it actually.
No wonder it's rated M18.
The kids crying, the shouting, and all..

Feeling darn tired now.
But I'm gonna do my chem homework.
At the same time, waiting for Euge to come online.

B'day is in 3 days time.
WHOOOO.

"Triggered by thoughts of you through my mind,
Floating around like a beautiful angel,
Dropped from Heaven."

TODAY. WAS. A. BAD. DAY. FOR. ME.
Sighhhh.

I woke up late feeling half alive.
I was so fucking tired.
I almost couldn't drag myself off the bed.
It's like all the tiredness welling up in my body.

Ig and me had decided to go for breakfast since we're late.
After that, we headed to school, managed to sneak in by the back.
Soon it was maths test. And gosh, TRIGO IS ALIEN TO ME.
I've no idea if I passed of fail. Whatever.
My studies and homework these days have been rather fucked up.
I'm downright fucking scared for the finals.

And damn it, my form teacher found out Ig and me sneaked in.
So ended up, doing detention after school. I HATE IT.
It was suppose to be an hour.
But NO, the fucking guard had to come quarrel with us.
Dumb arguement which caused us 3 hours.
I'LL KILL THAT FUCKER ONE DAY. Arghhh.

You know what, the bad day doesn't end here.
My parents had to come pick me up after detention.
And BOOM, my mum had to come nag at me over small shit.
My blood was so boiled up at that point of time.

I couldn't take it.
I got into my bed after a bath.
I just woke up an hour ago.
I feel much better I guess.
LIFE'S A BITCH AFTER ALL.

I shall say no more,
Sayonara.

"I wish you were here,
To take away all the anger in me,
To bring the warmth you always does to my heart,
And to make my smile reappear now.

I just want to let you know, yet again,
That.. I Love You With All My Heart."

The extent to which I love you cannot be captured in words or in a phrase.

It is not possible to count everything I love about you by any number.

The depths in which my soul holds you close could not be measured in feet or any distance traveled.

There is no name, not even the most perfect of names that could justify the love expressed in what you mean to me.

There are not enough words in existence to describe what I feel when you hold me tight and gaze into my eyes.

It is not possible to have a phrase that could capture the essence of my hearts desire when you are with me.

But if there were a number, it would be infinity.

If there were a distance, it would be endless.

If there were name, it would be true love.

If there were words, they would be burning passion.

And if there were a phrase, it would be I love you in everything that I am.

Just ended my tuition.
I'm feeling pretty weird today.
Woke up late in the morning, feeling sickly.
Didn't had the mood for school at all.

Gosh, finals are coming. LESS THAN 3 WEEKS.
I should start getting my ass to school.
And also, my birthday's around the corner.
BUT there's the preparation of finals.
So basically, I guess i'll fully celebrate my b'day after the exams.

Your soft voice never silent,
It’s forever in my ears,
Serenading every moment
And calming all my fears.

This is what happens when your French Toast gets under the hands of Euge.
She loves cutting it into small cutey bitsy size. HAHAHA.







Woke up early like 7 this morning to get ready to meet Euge for breakfast!
Hahaha, she looks so cute when I saw her. Her eyes was so sleepy.
Then we headed to J8 for Ya Kun. Had the craving for it.
I swear it was so damn funny when we were playing around with our food.
She threw rice cakes into my milk tea. Hahaha.

After that, headed to Mos for lunch.
Then sent Euge and Gil to their tuition at Bukit Timah.
Hahaha. Gil showed us her hamster. WAH FUCKING CUTE I TELL YOU.
DAMN ADORABLE AND TAME. I WANT ONEEEEEE, BUT LAZY TO TAKECARE.

Had to rush to my tuition at Sembawang after sending them.
Long journey. Damn tired. Lucky had my book with me.
I was suddenly engrossed in it.
Fuck it, kept dozing off during tuition.
Whoa, long day out. I just came back only.

"You walked lightly into my life,
Captivating and lovely to my mind."

GAY SHIT.
AND HELL NO, I DON'T WEAR THAT WHITE SPECS THING OUT.
JUST TRYING OUT. HAHA.

Headed to Steph's confirmation today at St. Ignatius Church.
Hahaha, then saw Aaron Chua getting confirmed too!
Anyway then after that, went to the reception.
The guys was freeloading the food like mad! (Including me lah)
We grabbed the nachos like no one's business. Haha.
At last, saw Clare today and catched up with her.

If there's one face I want to see,
so beautiful, so true,
one smile that makes a difference,
to everything I do..

It's YOU.

If I look to the stars above,
I'm searching for an ounce of love.

If I close my eyes and start to smile,
you can bet, I'm thinking how you're worthwhile.

If I stop breathing, and close my eyes,
then I saw your reflection in the sky.

If I pray everyday and every night,
it's about you soon being in my sight.

If I lick my lips and my eyes grow soft,
thoughts of you are not far off.

If I lay down my head and fall asleep,
dreams of you flow very deep.

If I'm very sad and extremely blue,
I smile and think of how I love you.

And If I'm not giving up at all,
Cause in my heart, I love you so.

Haha, the photo is kinda gay.

Today's jamming didn't turn out that well.
But it's okay, I'm sure it'll be better next time.

After that, met the SJI dudes for steamboat at Marina south.
Whoa, fucking full now. I can see the awful hideous look of my tummy.
Then headed home after they pooled.

Came home to realised all my data in my comp is GONE. ALL GONE.
IT'S SERIOUSLY FUCKING SAD. SO MUCH MEMORIES AND STUFF.
I'm cursing the comp now. Dumb comp crashed a few days ago.
I'm sad. I'm pissed. This stinks.

EUGEYHONEYBUNNY, MUST TAKE MORE PHOTOS WITH ME OKAY!
Okay steady set (:

"It is my prayer that I will always be;
The one who brings you joy and sets your spirit free.
With my love I’ll cover you and warm your soul with mine;
Give you pleasures, like none you will find."

Meet Euge's new soft toy. Hahaha.
She got it, then don't care abt me alr you know ):

I'm talking to her on the phone now.
Hahaha, went out with her today.
Fooled around at Suntec!
She loves to nudge to my balls. Pain you know.
And she created a song about me wearing push-up underwear,
FOR YOUR INFO, I DDDOOONNNN'TTTT.

After that, met Jat and Zach.
Headed to orchard to eat.
Then went Holland V to chill out.
MET A NEW FRIEND, AARON. HAHAHA.
Cool yoozxzxzxz.


WOOOO. We were awfully bored.
So we decided to burnnn a toilet roll!

Watch the world go by.

Jamming at Jon's house today.
It was rather late, so we did a few songs only.
Friday, go big jamming studio!

Then in the night, I headed to my usual solitary spot.
Hanging by the edge of the building, thinking about stuff.
Throughout the whole day, I was thinking about her.
Not a single moment did she escape my thoughts,
She was always there in my mind.

Conflicts are occurring between me and my parents.
They're rather bad, and getting worst.
But I listened to Euge my dear and I did it.
I had a casual talk with my dad,
And I guess we're on better terms alr.

Gosh, I think i'm putting on tremendous weight.
HAH, I don't wanna be a fatass birthday boy in days to come.

Fuck it all.
Fine, I'm not okay.
I feel like stabbing my parents.
I feel fucked up.
I'm choked in emotions.

"You mean so much more to me than meets the eye.

Don't you ever leave me,

Don't you ever forget me.

Cause I'll tie my heart around yours,

In dead knots.

& never will I let go.

I'm shaking cold here,

Waiting for the warmth of your arms,

To come crashing down on me.

Don't leave me hanging honey,

Whether near or far,

I need you more than ever.

I LOVE YOU."

Okay, thats it.
If my parents ain't giving me allowance,
I'll chop them up and sell their organs.
Sounds good, doesn't it.

FUCK THEM.

We may seem just normal now,
We may be distant now,
But my heart will always be close to yours.

No matter what, I'll be there for you.
I'll be strong on my two feet.
Nothing will matter to me more than you.
Nothing's gonna stop my love for you.
Kill me, curse me, condemn me,
But I still love you and I'll wait for you.


You know I love you,
I do.

"As I looked at her,
Tears cascaded down the corners of her eyes.
My fingers swept across her face gently,
Wiping the tears.
In me, my emotions rumbled.
I gripped my fingers like a fist,
I gritted my teeth tightly.
I was fighting back my tears,
Helding it back."

Baby,
I'll wipe those tears off your face.
Hug you tight and tell you that everything's alright.
I'll be always there to pick you up when you're down.

Just know that,
Here in my heart,
There's a special place inside that you'll always be.

I'll be thinking of you.
I'll be missing you.
I love you.

"Your delicate fingers,
The warmth of your touch,
Mesmerizing eyes looking deep into mine.
You're ever so perfect in my eyes."

Fuck all these
I don't feel like living no more
I feel tired
I feel drained
I feel pain
I just wanna pull my heart out and step on it now

I really don't know
I guess i need some time alone
I hate myself

I guess i'm fucking nuts, mad, crazy, fucked or whatsoever
But after all that has happen, I won't hate you
Thats cause I love you

Swelling bloodshot eyes,

And swirling thoughts.

Shivering cold,

With no one to hold.

Don't leave me baby,

My heart feels so heavy.

This is the first time I ever felt this way for someone. It's not just an ordinary thing, it feels extraodinary. Sometimes I can't find the right words to say how I really feel. The feeling rages inside my heart, just like a burning fire. And it never dies off, it keeps getting bigger and bigger. And I came to realise, I love you, I really love you. When you're by my side, my heart beats faster than ever. When I look at you, I see beauty right before my eyes. When you're not around, I think of you all the time. In this world, there's no other place I would want to be, except being right by your side. In my eyes, you're not just a girl, not just anything, you're someone really special to me. No matter what happens, I'll stand by you. I'll be there with you through everything. There to make you feel alright, there to wipe the tears on your face, there to keep you warm, there to protect you, there to hug you tightly. Baby, I want to be your pillar of strength.

You mean alot to me.
Do I mean anything?

My feelings for you is true.
Do you feel for me?

Or maybe.. after all, I'm just nothing to you.

TAKE
A
LEAP
DOWN.

Don't die on me.

Cause I'll die too.

No one's gonna replace my love for you.

Love isn't easy come, easy go.

My love for you is true.

Baby, you're worth everything to me.

I love you.

I'll be lying if I said it doesn't bother me.
But I know one day, things will change.
You know I don't wanna lose you.

I won't forget.
I won't let you slip away.
I won't break my promises.
I won't runaway from the fact that I really love you.

I'll brave it all,
Just to be with you.

This flame in my heart,
Will keep burning for you.
It won't die off,
It won't.