Sunday, October 28, 2007
; 11:46 AM
I didn't expect things to turn out this way just before I leave for Bintan.
It's all my fault, and I'm really sorry.
Whatever bad I've said, I take it all back.
I didn't mean it, I didn't mean to flare up.
I'm sorry for everything honey.
I'll be leaving for Bintan early in the morning tml alr.
You take care okay, I'm sorry.
Don't be mad at me alright.
I love you.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
; 9:54 PM
I'm back home now.
Headed to dinner with my dad for jap buffet.
& ended up drinking lots of Sake.
Well yeah, It's about time I drink my sorrows away.
Once in a while, I need to drink badly.
Feeling kinda tttiiippsssyy now.
{ Hey honey, I'm really sorry about it.
It was fault, I shouldn't have done it. I'm sorry. }
Friday, October 26, 2007
; 5:12 PM
Whoa, I'm feeling a tremendous amount of tiredness now.
Hahaha overnight cycling around Max's house last night.
Damn fagged out now, hopefully I'm not falling sick.
Cause I'll be heading to Bintan on Monday. WOOO, hell yeah.
It's sure gonna be hella fun. Haha.
But things at home now between me and my parents aren't going so well.
They right now isn't giving me allowance at all.
I've also rather been quite bad actually.
Felt really guilty for running away from home ytd.
Gosh, I hope things will cool off after I come back from Bintan.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
; 11:57 PM
Alright, so I guess I didn't runaway from home.
This morning was real fucked up.
I'm still fuming over it somehow.
Oh wells, glad my mum's going out of town soon.
Don't wish to see her around at all.
Fuck it, I'm damn broke. Sighh.
My parents don't wanna fucking give me cash.
"If I lay here,
Would you lay here with me,
And watch the world go by?"
; 11:29 AM
Hey mum, here I go again, cursing the living hell outta you on blogspot. But hell yeah, thats the whole fucking point. You step on my toes, I'll step over your fucking head. What's all the commotion you start huh. Pissing me off so early in the fucking morning. I could've bashed the fuck outta you just now. It's quite obvious you're so much weaker than me. Your slaps, kicks and punches are useless against me, I suggest you save your energy. And hand me my fucking cash you bitch. You've spoiled my fucking plan. It's gonna be payback time soon, you just fucking watch out.
From your dearest beloved son who-wants-to-kill-you-now,
Justin Chee.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
; 10:16 PM
Whoa the weather's been fucking hot these days.
Haha my shoulders are like burnt from the suntan ytd with euge!
Tml gotta wake up early to go somewhere to do something.
I've to travel far, but it's alright.
It's for her anyway, I'll do anything for her (:
I'm gonna surprise euge after her school. Haha.
"I. Love. You."
Saturday, October 20, 2007
; 7:29 PM
WOOOOOO.
OFF TO OCH NOWWWWW.
TIME TO PARTY WITH THE SPIRITS.
If I don't come home alive, give me flowers when I die.
Thanks.
Friday, October 19, 2007
; 11:19 PM
{ Hey Linn, I'm sorrrrrryyy. REALLY REALLY.
I didn't mean to scare you at all.
My bad my bad. Sorry ya? }
; 10:13 PM
Sup Kenneth, looking f-a-b.
Haha. When the tough gets going, the going gets tough.
Sup Jat, bros 4 life dude.
Shopping with Linn today was damn funny.
She was doing robot dances to electronic music at the shops.
It's fucking funny. Hahaha.
BOO LINETTE, THE TOYO IS COMING FOR YOU TONIGHT.
Just kidding just kidding! Don't be scared.
After that, came home for awhile.
Then headed out for dinner with Jat, Zach & Kenneth.
Kenneth, you are one funny dude. Haha (thumbs up)
And I'm so thankful Jat's mum sent me home.
My toes are like cramping, a whole day of walking.
; 12:13 PM
{ Happy Birthday Shalyn! May all the good times roll and be great memories! }
Hello everybody.
Haha exams are finally off my burden!
Now at CH's house chilling,
I'll be heading to extend my passport soon.
Then meeting Linn later to accompany her shopping!
Hahaha that stewpidspazticgurl.
"You are define as what love is to me,
The feelings rage through me like a tidal wave,
And this heart beats for you without fail,
I love you."
Thursday, October 18, 2007
; 6:04 PM
Yesyes, there you go.
Haha finally a new slick skin in sight for all.
Sighh gosh it's the end of my exams,
and I can't believe I'm slacking at home.
I'm freaking-ly bored, all my friends have school now.
Oh wells, a weekend of fun awaits!
& not forgetting upcoming chalets, events and Bintan trip!
HEY HOLIDAYS, HERE I FUCKING COME!
{ Haha Linn, you so poor thing ah, shop alone! EHH WO YAO KAN NI DE HOLGA! }
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
; 10:44 PM
ROBOMART introduces a variety of clothes and accessories for both sex, more towards the ladies. WHILE STOCK LAST!
Please visit Linn's awesome Robomart site for more info!
http://robomart.livejournal.com/
http://xanga.com/robomart
; 10:07 PM
Running around in circles,
Directions have been lost over time,
Helplessly gasping for air,
Unknowingly entagled in fear,
With droplets falling from grace,
Visions blurring with intensity,
Body trembled cold from top to toe,
There's no way out.I'm laying down my life here,
Just to be by your side,
No matter what happens.
; 8:25 PM
Oh oh, Chee's in trouble.
Hahaha I didn't study for DNT exam tml.
Oh wells, can't be bothered alr!
BYEBYE EXAMS,
I'M A FREEEE MAAAAN.
Woooooooooooo.
But I'm really scared abt my results.
I think I didn't do so well.
Went out with Euge, Gil and Shanna today!
Hahaha air hockey in the arcade is the sex.
I'm glad me and Mr sunflower cheered Euge up (:
ILY, honey.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
; 10:59 AM
COME ON COME ON COME ON,
2 MORE DAYS BABY. I stand before you,
With palms to the sky,
No gold in my pocket,
No thorn in my side
And all I can offer,
Where words have no place,
Is a body that trembles,
And this love that awaits.
Monday, October 15, 2007
; 8:06 PM
Gosh, I'm pretty much sick of mugging alr.
Heads up, 3 more fucking days.
Then I could say goodbye to my books,
And settle in for the rocking holidays.
One gig coming up at DXO, not sure if I should go.
DXO's rather screwed up.
"Deep down, I am vowing myself to wait,
To share a life with the one that’s deep within my soul."
Sunday, October 14, 2007
; 11:55 PM
Silence. Darkness. Isolation. He's shut in his surreal world once again,
With his thoughts pacing all over his head,
Feeling lost from all that besieged him,
A carnage of emotions enveloped within,
Dangling on a thin thread of hope,
Fear eating him up like a pack of hungry wolves,
Breathing hung heavy from his lungs,
Hands turning icy cold down to his fingertips,
His pool of eyes seemed to be flooded,
As her image flickered on & on. For the first time in his life,
He couldn't help it.
He's scared to lose her.
Hey, I love you.
; 8:33 PM
Hey mum, thanks so fucking much for ruining my mood today. Thanks so much for sprouting and nagging rubbish in my face. You are always so 'right'. You call the shots, while I'm just the one who's always in the fucking wrong. Well, this time round, you're unreasonable in whatever you said. I don't expect you to take back your words, cause I fucking know you won't. You could go fucking take your assumptions and shuff it your own face. Sometimes you just don't fucking hear me out, do you? I guess not. So here's your son, with this message. If you see this, I hope you're fucking proud of me now.
Sorry about the crudeness everybody.
; 12:41 AM
Can I be the one to,
Take you away from your living nightmare.
Can I be the one to,
Wash away this sea of fallen tears.
Can I be the one to,
Make you feel new once again.
Can I be the one to,
Look into those gorgeous eyes of yours,
And say that "I really love you".
Can I be the one to,
Embrace you in my warmth to keep you safe.
Can I be the one to,
Bring a smile across your face always.
Can I be the one to,
Hold you tightly in my arms and never let go.
Can I be the one to,
Love you.
Friday, October 12, 2007
; 9:31 PM
Just know that,
My thoughts always go wherever you go,
I'll never forget the hours spent since we first met.
Life is richer and sweeter by far,
For knowing such a sweetheart as you are.
Every single day I lay upon the side of my bed,
With my hands clasped together tightly,
As I shut my eyes slowly and pray,
That God will be looking over you from the Heavens above,
With his angels guarding upon you safe and sound for me.
Shed no tears my dear,
I'll always be by your side,
No matter what.
I love you.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
; 8:37 PM
Today's been a good day, besides the Geo paper screw up!
Headed to town to buy boxers, then to buy a bag.
After that, went to Vivo!
Pet safari's pets are so freakingly cute.
Hahaha. Euge, I know you want that Syrian baby hammie.
Then funfunfun at the arcade, played Tekken with Euge!
Haha, It's been ages since I've played it.
Whoa damn fucking hardcore, we almost broke the machine I tell you. We were whacking the buttons like mad!
I love the candy floss we bought today.
IT WAS HUGEEEEE! I bet everyone who saw it wanted a piece of it! Hahaha.
Thanks honey for the good-luck cookies,
I love it (:
And now i'm back home.
Gotta study science later.
Sighhhhhh.
"See the love's that burning in my eyes,
Burning ever so brightly."
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
; 7:39 PM
To all my classmates and friends in school,
I know some of you are really scared about retaining.
It's hard to tell at this point of time.
All I can say is, do what's best for you now,
before it's really too late.
I mean, me myself have experienced it all.
And it's one of the worst thing that could happen.
I hate to say it, but they are in fact gonna retain some,
so just get yourself prepared alright.
I don't mean prepared for the worst.
Well, no matter what happens in the end,
just know that, we still got each other.
Haha, you got me as a friend for sure.
So remember, now's the finals,
study really really hard.
I hope to see all of you next year.
Yours sincerely,
Justin CHEE.
; 4:59 PM
The exams have reached it's demoralizing peak.
With my high hopes to score for maths shattered today.
Damn paper was rather tough, appearing questions which i didn't really studied for. Depressing as it seems (a long sigh of agony).
Oh wells, all the best for the other papers.
I can't afford slacking no more, but I can't seem to concentrate.
Here i am, blasting music, staring at the comp, day dreaming.
Grrrr, bear with it bear with it.
Let me see.. about 9 more days to go.
Yes, thats right, N-I-N-E more fucking days.
Back to my studying on plants and rivers.
How boring can it be.
"VERY EXTREMELY BORING."
I would cross the ends of the world,
Just to be by your side.
I would embrace you with these kisses,
Which only love can define.
I would grasp every opportunity I have,
To let you know how much you mean to me.
And if my love for you is doubt,
I'll keep perservering till the end,
Cause I love you.
You should know that,
I really care alot about you.
When was a time which I wasn't by your side?
I've always been, and will always be.
Remember my dear,
This heart is all yours,
Waiting for you.
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
; 2:25 PM
Oh gosh, this sucks.
This really sucks.
Why does my exams have to drag till 19th.
Other schools are like done with theirs.
Maaaattthhhhsss tml.
Sighh practice practice practice.
B-O-R-I-N-G.
I want my hols now.
I want my hair dyed.
I want to grow long hair.
I want partying and drinking.
I want hardcore jamming.
I want gay stay-overs.
I want moshing gigs.
I want good grades.
I want to go out with my friends.
I want to spend time with her.
I want to go overseas.
"Sometimes,
It feels like I'm slipping away.
It's scary."
Sunday, October 07, 2007
; 11:44 PM
I'm all alone,
Surrounded by an awful silence,
Only hearing the sound of my heart beating,
With thoughts crushing through my mind.
& as visions flashed by,
Seeing melancholy all around her,
Tears cascading down her cheeks,
Puffed up reddening eyes,
Oh dear oh dear oh dear,
I've seen it a couple of times.
But I'm helplessly hanging here,
Feeling half alive like a fucked up dead body,
Wishing I could take her away from all these nightmares,
To renew all that has harmed her,
Vanish the pain that was killing her.
All I ever wanted was to,
Stay by her side forevermore,
Arms embraced around tightly,
With a smile across her face,
We could write a fairytale of our own,
We could, We could,
But I guess It doesn't seem to be working.
In my eyes,
She's an angel,
She looks ever so beautiful,
So irresistable to me.
For crying my aching heart out,
I love her,
I love her,
I really do love her,
& I want to love her.
; 7:34 PM
I feel NERDY.
Hah I've been studying alot.
Thats a good thing right!
Anyway, just now CH5 was airing the movie, A Walk To Remember.
Gosh It's damn fucking sad.
Made my tear glands active, almost cried.
Shut up, IT'S NOT GAY. It's really sad lah.
Now slacking at my tutor's house.
Tuition later again!
"I miss your presence,
Your warmthness that makes me feel safe,
Your smile that makes my heart smile,
It all revolves around you,
You, that would trigger my heart racing fast."
Friday, October 05, 2007
; 11:33 PM
No matter what occurs,
Whether near or far,
Even if I've to die or risk,
Or to abandon the world,
I'll be there with open arms,
For you my dear,
My one & only,
Till the end,
Till death.
There's no words to express how I feel for you,
except those 3 words,
& I mean it,
From the bottom of my beating heart.
I, will never give up.
Kill me, fuck me, hate me, stab me,
It won't matter at all,
Cause deep down,
this heart will still be beating for you.
I.
L.
Y.
Thursday, October 04, 2007
; 4:40 PM
You make me smile, you make me cry
You make me want to jump up and touch the sky
You make me dream, you make it seem
As though I've been touched by angel's wing
My yearning for you won't ever stop
My loving for you won't ever drop
The soul in me won't ever let go
My body and mind will always love
& feel my heart beat faster and faster,
So fast, I think it'll explode
Well, all that I'm trying to say is that,
I love you
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
; 5:06 PM
Oh gosh, I'm feeling so restless yet tired.
I'm dying to do well for exams, but..
I've got no mood to study at all.
Arghh. Fuck this.
WILL. EXAMS. JUST. HURRY. PASS.
Give me my holidays.
