Urghh my stomach feels so bloated up from dinner.
Haha HaagenDaz's ice cream was too fucking sweeeeet.
Anyway I've been taking care of Euge's hamster, Hershey.
He's super adorable, me & my sister fancies him so much.

Euge's flying off on the monday alr ):
Then I'll be flying off on the 15th too.
We won't be able to see each other for abt a month.
Goshh I'm gonna miss her sooo much.
I'll be back on the Christmas eve only. (BOOOO)
I wish to be back earlier, but I ain't got a choice.

Haha I guess I'll be getting some Christmas presents at Japan.
It's gonna be very cold there, and I'm all geared up.
Hopefully this trip will be a smooth & pleasant one.
But needless to say, I HATE TOURS. No freedom.
Oh wells, I shall go learn some japanese on the net now.
Sayonara. Goodnight everybody.

Baby,
In this period when we're not seeing each other,
I guess It'll be a good time to sort things out for you & myself.
Just know that, no matter what, wherever you are,
I'll always be thinking of you, I'll always love you, I'll always be here waiting for you.

Headed to Jat & Clare's confirmation today.
It was packed like sardines, extremely crowded.
Haha, dinner with the guys and everyone was fun.
Samuel broke a chair at Mos Burger while laughing. (WOW)
It was fucking funny, made quite a big commotion there actually.
Haha, but the laughters were great.
Anyway thats abt all, nights everybody.
& Thanks Rach my dear for being there for me just now.

It's wee hours in the morning
I've been feeling the worst I ever felt
I know I'm damn pathetic alright
A faggot that cries almost every hour
I can't control it, I can't help it
I'm so exhausted but I can't sleep
This torment in my head is killing me
How I wish there was a bottle of sleeping pills
How I wish all these was just a nightmare
How I wish she was here by my side

Baby princess
I miss you so much
I love you
Nights

I guess this marks the end of it.
She gotta go, and maybe I should too.
Baby, you take care alright.
I may be waiting or may not.
I'll treasure all the memories we had.
Deep within my heart, I'll always love you.
I'll miss the touch of your hands, the look in your eyes, your sweet voice that echoed through my ears and all that we did together.
Keep the keychain I gave you okay?
The message written on it will always be true.
I love you, Goodbye my love.

xoxo,
Chee.

I woke up in the morning feeling so lost
I woke up thinking that my baby will be by my side
I woke up having a memory relapse of what happened last night
I woke up shivering in a pile of mess
Looked in the mirror and was shocked
Fucking bad hangover
Bloodshot eyes
Messed up hair
Dried up tears
I hate myself

Baby I understand I understand
But I love you so much
I need you baby, come back to me
Don't go baby don't go
I can't go on I'm stuck
I can't focus in everything
I can't function myself properly
I can't think of anything else except you baby
You mean so much to me so much that I can't even imagined it
I'll do anything to have you back in my arms
We love each other why must all these happen
I did so much to get to this point baby but it's shattered now
I love you I miss you I want you I need you baby
I've never felt this much for anyone else before
You're my sweetheart baby you're my shining star
I need you shining by my side
I wanna see the sparkle in your in your eyes
Baby I love you so much

I think I drank too much last night
The last thing I remembered was talking to baby on the phone
Then I can't remember anything else
Fuck I hope I didn't get drunk
I'll ask my friends what happened last night

Hey baby,
I just wanna say this from the bottom of my heart,
That I sincerely love you right from the start.

In this world,
If there's one thing I desire the most,
Thats you my sweetheart.

No words can describe how much you mean to me,
No one can ever replace my love for you,
No matter what happens, you know I'm always here for you.

I love you so much baby,
And I mean it,
I'll cherish you till the end of time.

xoxoxoxoxoxo,
Chee.

Fuck sia, my comp has like fucking viruses.
Now I've got no choice but to use the lousy spare comp.
If the whole comp crashes and all my info is lost, I'll kill myself.

Anyway I went out with Euge today! (:
We headed to Thompson rd to eat barchormee.
Then suddenly started raining cats & dogs.
Haha had to buy umbrella, but we still got rather drenched up.
After that, headed to Vivo to shop around!

Working for the past 2 days has been awfully tiring.
I could feel the tangling strain on my both arms now.
Due to insufficient sleep, I woke up having sore eyes.

Haha I think sooner or later my neighbours are gonna lodge a complain.
I've got a habit of blasting fucking loud music when noone's at home.

Sighh I shall walk around the shops opposite my house.
I'm so fucking bored right now.
Hmmm should be heading out later to meet Euge (:

How's the first day of work? (If you'd ask me)
Bloodshot eyes. Aching sensation. Overwhelming stress.
I just got home, decided to do OT just now.
It ain't easy working in a banquet, thats for sure.
Tonight's event was a school's prom night.
Haha it's pretty cool, except for the working part.
I think some girls even mistook me as a student from their school.
Everything went well I guess, just that it's really tiring.

Somehow my senses feels relaxed now, jamming to Marilyn manson.
Goshhh, another dreading day at work tml again. (Bear with it)
I'm gonna try to find another part time job besides this.
I need cash so badly if not my holidays are screwed.

I missed Euge.
Baby, I'm sorry, I tried to msg or call you but I couldn't.
Sigh I was slogging my guts out working ):

Alright I feel like playing Halo now before I head to bed.
Nights.

I'm so frustrated that my Itunes ain't working due to an error.
And now came along more fucking errors on my messenger, internet explorer, firefox and stuff.
I'm lucky to be even able to blog this post.
Haha there was an error that occurred awhile ago.
Gosh don't tell me it's fucking viruses.
My most essential stuff I do on the comp is gone.
Fuck. I need my Itunes, messenger and internet.

Haha I just woke up from a dream.
The last thing I remembered was seeing Euge in it.
Dreams always felt so real, it's scary.
You wake up thinking you're somewhere else, but the fact is it's the dreams thats making you feel out of place.
And the weird thing at times is that you just can't seem to remember anything at all.

"You are with me always,
In a smile, a memory, a feeling
Or a moment we share."

Fuck it, you know what.
Forget it, forget all these stupid family issues I've got.
I'm sick of it, I'm sick of getting myself all tired over it.
I don't see a point in it anymore, nothing at all.
Fuck house rules. Fuck the naggings. Fuck it all.
Let me enlighten my parents with a rule of my own.
It's simple, it's easy to digest into their pea-brains.
"YOU. FUCK. OFF, I. FUCK OFF.
YOU. GO. YOUR. OWN. WAY, I. GO. MY. OWN. WAY."
Easy as ABC, they stick to it, and everything will be alright.
Peace.

Oh, I'll be starting work on Weds & Thurs.
Haha I hope things will turn out alright.
It's gonna be tiring, but I'll bear with it for the moolahs.
I'm also currently looking for another job alternatively.

"Wrap your arms around me baby,
Don't let go, don't let go,
I wish to be lost in your arms forever."

Oh gosh, 3 more days in school and school's out. (hang in there)
Fucking hell, my mum's starting her nagging again.
I'll burn her if she crosses my limit.
Sighh plus tuition tml. Fuck it.

Anyway today's been a lazy day as always.
Headed to CH's new crib.
Not bad not bad.

FUCK LA, MY SISTER SCREAMING AT ME SAYING SHE WANTS TO USE.
I WANT TO KILL MY WHOLE FAMILY ALR LA.
BYE.

Stardust today at J8 with Euge!
Haha, the movie was not bad I would say.
Can't wait for the more upcoming movies during this holidays.

Anyway here's some good news.
Things between me and my parents have cooled off.
Ytd went shopping with them, bought new books and clothes.
So yeah, I'm glad thats the case.

Can't wait to start work next week.
Not cause I'm excited to work, I just need the moolahs.
Most probably be doing OT. (fuck, no extra charge)

School is ending on Weds, at last.
I'm thinking if should I dye my hair tonight?
But there's freaking school on Monday.
Oh whatever, It's the last days of school anyway.

"Believe in me baby,
I'll never let you down."

It's been a cold war between me and my parents for the past few days.
Things didn't work out at all. Not for me. Not for them.
It could've been my fault, or maybe it is after all.
Oh wells, since they ain't giving me money, it's time for me to be independent.
I've got to work throughout the weekends for cash.
It sucks having to always depending on them for cash.
Gosh the never ending nags and quarrelling is pretty fucked up.

I want a life of my own.
And me, always being stubborn and headstrong will start a mayhem if anyone opposes.
It's hard for me to control my temper, especially to my parents.
It's bad I know, I gotta change my ways somehow.

Baby,
You're everything to me,
You're the air I breathe.
Just know that I'll stand by you no matter what,
I love you,
I miss you,
I want you,
I need you.

I was packing my letters and stuff.
And one by one, I started reading all of it.
Well, all the vivid memories deep within them.
Friendship, love, family and special ones.
I'll always hold them close to my heart.

& for now, It's time for me to hit the lights and tuck into my sheets.
Goodnight everybody.

Boo you, school. It's terribly fucking boring.
Would some crazy guy just burn my school down please.
Hours and hours of math and science. (get a life, seriously)
Well, after school, I went to meet Euge and Gil.
Hahaha they had pizza hut, and coincidentally I saw my friends and teachers from school. Then headed to J8 to meet Shanna for arcade.

Btw, my friend recommended me a part-time job.
At last at last, I need moolahs badly for this hols.
My parents ain't intending to give me much cash.
Screw them, I wanna be independent.

Hmmm, I'm thinking of dyeing my hair.
Haha. Any suggestions of colors people?

"Gentle fingertips graced with warmth,
As I embraced her tiny hands over mine,
Looking into her sparkling eyes,
Only to find myself falling deeper and deeper.

I love you, baby."

A humid and lazy sunday to set off my day today.
Lazing in front of the comp, nosing around in Deviantart.
I don't think I'll be heading out, except for dinner with Rach.
Sighh back to school tml. (2 more fucking wks to go)
Seriously, I don't feel like going at all.

And I just found out bad news from my mum.
Baby's flying off from 3rd to 18th dec.
I'll be flying off from 15th to 25th dec.
Now that clearly concludes, we can't see each other for abt a month.
FUCK FUCK FUCK I HATE THIS. SHUCKS.
I rather not go to Japan and stay in S'pore to be with Euge.
Gosh, don't tell me I'm gonna miss the chalet too.
Kill me.

Just sent Euge's to her church.
She's off to her confirmation camp for 3 days.
Sighh I'll miss her alot.
Now just wasting time on the comp.
Haha I'll be picking up my cousin at her school later and then off for dinner.
Hopefully Marie could make it, it's been long since we catched up!
Gosh I can't really eat eh.
Today's dental trip was quite pain.
I think the worst among the all.

"01.11.07.
I'll cherish every single moment with you,
I love you baby."