Sunday, May 25, 2008
; 12:02 PM
"We face our demons in life to defeat them,
But time and time again they'll keep coming back for more,
It's like a merry-go-round which goes round and back to square one."
OMGOMGOMG Chinese Os are tml.
And I'm like a serious sucker in chinese language,
So I pray to God to be guiding me along the way.
I shall get intimate with my chinese notes and books after my lunch.
Yet again, the weather is as hot as a baking oven.
And I'm still feeling sleeeepy from all the late nights this whole week.
Looks like I might just fall into a deep slumber later.
Boy oh boy,
I've got a bad feeling abt the checking of scripts on Tues.
My gut feelings smacks me hard on my forehead.
I hope I didn't did that badly for mids.
My parents might just give me a crazy end-of-the-world nagging.
And they might lock me up in a old rusty cage in a cold dark room.
And I won't live to see the sun rays of my June Hols.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
; 6:58 PM
"Your vision starts spinning,
Everything moves in motion,
The world comes to a freeze,
You wish you could turn back time,
But there's no way you can.
Guilt envelops him inside out,
His eyes wide open staring at the ceiling,
He could feel his heart pumping fast,
Heavy breathing with every tick of the clock,
He didn't mean it, He didn't expect it,
Blame was pushed down on his shoulders,
And suddenly in his mind,
It was total darkness except a faint image of her,
Tears cascaded down the corners of his eyes,
As deep within,
He loved her so much & never wanted anything bad to happen."
Chinese intensive lessons have been awfully boring.
But it's all worth it if I really do well for my chinese Os.
Dammit 5 more days. It's now or never, I'm scared.
Wish me all the best guys. I'm awaiting for a miracle to happen.
Friday, May 16, 2008
; 12:38 PM
"Stop hiding,
Search your true self deep within,
Cause the world's waiting for you."
I'm feeling awfully shagged.
Gosh I should've slept early ytd.
Thanks to my dota game which lasted so long, then I couldn't sleep.
So I went to watch youtube and only slept at 6.
And my body clock works in a way of me not sleeping beyond 12.
I was accurate enough, I woke up at 3 mins before noon.
Now having my darn sinus, and eyes looking like a drunkard.
At last mid exams are finally over.
Here I am at home in my cosy office chair, with my awesome music blasting loud.
But omg next week's starting intensive chinese lessons.
The thought of it really blends your joy into freaking bits.
Worst, chinese Os in 2 weeks time.
Save me from this bitter Os.
Monday, May 12, 2008
; 11:41 PM
"Nobody wants to admit this, but bad things will keep on happening. Maybe that's because it's all a chain, and a long time ago someone did the first bad thing, and that led someone else to do another bad thing, and so on. You know, like that game where you whisper a sentence into someone's ear, and that person whispers it to someone else, and it all comes out wrong in the end. But then again, maybe bad things happen because it's the only way we can keep remembering what good is supposed to look like."
- Jodi Picoult's Nineteen Minutes
Friday, May 09, 2008
; 5:23 PM
"Watch the world go by rapidly,
So fast that you could hardly notice it,
Well life's like the weather,
Stormy as it is with the grey clouds over your head,
Days where you feel solitude,
Days where you feel you've given in too much,
Days where nothing seems to be going right,
Days where you feel like your mind's tearing apart,
Days where you feel what's the point in living,
But note that, in the end,
Your love and close ones mean the most."
Just finished watching Jumper dvd.
It got me thinking somehow.
Gosh it'll be so fucking cool to be one.
Imagine I could hold on to Euge and travel to all over the world in a split second.
Wouldn't it be nice?
*Slaps hard on forehead. Well, stop dreaming boy.
Anyway maths paper today was awful.
Chances of me getting good marks are hopelessly low.
Forget abt it, this time round I didn't do well at all.
Just have to work harder for the prelims and Os.
Studies are sucha bore and a serious turn off.
Anyway ytd was..
Happy 9th Month (:
Trust me girl,
Hold me tight & we'll dance with our hearts ablaze,
The day where my eyes fell upon you,
Is the day I told myself I'm never gonna let you go,
For the rest of our days to come, I'll take care of you,
I love you.
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
; 9:48 PM
"Darkness is closing in,
Hold me tight,
Guide me tonight,
I'm falling behind."
My mind's feeling saturated from all the studying today.
I've been getting ready for tml's chem exam.
Haha my whole bed's in a mess of notes.
Decided to just get myself online to relax for awhile.
I can't wait for mids to end, at least I could get a short break before the prelims and Os.
Today's maths paper was rather awful, I was clueless with quite a few questions.
Well it made me realized that I haven't studied hard enough.
Fuck my mum's nagging.
Here I am trying to destress,
And there she is trying to overstress me.
Hey mum,
Go fly a kite at Bishan park or catch some guppies down at the drain,
Stop disturbing me will you.
Sunday, May 04, 2008
; 10:46 PM
Things were never easy from the start,
I'm sick of all that's happening right before my eyes,
It crushed me time and time again,
A promise kept waiting to fulfill,
But not for long I hope,
Cause I might just take another path
Yes, as you can see I'm not in a very good mood.
Indeed, you can say I'm feeling fucked up.
My oh my, what a really bad day it turned out to be.
Maybe I should stitch my parents mouth when they're asleep.
They've been talking too much today, they just don't know when to stop.
I mean one day, just one fine day, I would probably just kill them.
Chop them up, cook them, and feed them to the dogs.
Simple as it is.
Friday, May 02, 2008
; 7:38 PM
"Is there another side,
Beyond the black & white,
Place I could meet you by,
Place on the other side."
I would say English paper today was relatively okay.
I'll kill myself if I actually do fail it.
Sighh next week's gonna be science and maths.
Die, I'm scared for my maths. Hownowbrowncow.
I've totally no mood to study today. It's either dota or the tv.
Well I better study tml, if not I can really pronounce myself dead.
Exams seems so brain-damaging, instead of mind-boosting.
Suddenly, I feel this surge of sadness in me.
"Hi, I'm emo."
(inserts it's-gonna-be-end-of-the-world sad face)
Fuck my eyes are seeing the double vision thingy again.
It happens when I stare too much at something particular.
TThhiiss iiss hhooww II''mm sseeeeiinngg tthhee wwoorrddss nnooww..
Hahaha. How retarded.
Studying with Wenying ytd was funny.
Haha. She needs help with science, big time.
And I must make sure she passes with flying colors by Os.
I will do my best, chee always saves the day!
{Euge, i miss you.}
Thursday, May 01, 2008
; 8:46 AM
"Obsession is a deadly sin."
What a great morning it is, the weather seems just nice.
I'll be heading out later to meet my classmate to study.
Sighh I need help with some of my maths, there's so much stuff which I forgot.
Well chinese paper was indeed fucked up. I got really low marks; DON'T ASK.
Oh golly, looks like my other papers are my only hope.
I scanned through my previous posts, & found out I've been ranting so much abt studies.
Sorry abt it guys, I'm really stressing alot on exams.
This year really gets me down.
Freedom is constraint due to the Os.
I miss jamming.
I miss some of my friends.
I miss heavy-moshing gigs.
I miss overnight cyclings.
I miss crashing at my friend's house.
I've gotta hang in there.
When the Os are over, I'm gonna break the walls apart and go nuts.
