Burn Out; Not Fade Away.

Do you?

2011-09-05T20:27:00.000+08:00

Sometimes,
do you feel so mentally and physically exhausted?

Sometimes,
do you feel so small and helpless?

Sometimes,
do you feel you've actually been pushed to your very limits?

Sometimes,
do you feel like you're hanging on for your dear life?

Sometimes,
do you feel so pain emotionally like your insides are tearing apart?

Sometimes,
do you feel so crushed and shattered?

Sometimes,
do you feel like just breaking down?

Sometimes,
do you feel lonely?

Sometimes,
do you feel like running away from the face of the earth?

Sometimes,
do you wish you cease to exist?

Sometimes,
do you ask your yourself if you are happy?

2011-04-12T22:50:00.002+08:00

"The stormy seas have passed,
I'm in the arms of my angel once again,
I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel."

2011-04-11T17:01:00.002+08:00

"Time seems to stand still,
Seconds ticking by,
Nowhere to run,
Just dead emptiness,
With all these pain and misery,
Heaviness of guilt weighing down on me,
Nothing can save me,
Only death can erase me"

2011-04-11T03:44:00.003+08:00

"Tender softness of her skin glazing against mine,
Sweet redolent scent of her stained on my bedsheets,
Those deep pools of angelic chestnut brown eyes gazing into mine,
Boundless long hair with gold streaks flowing over her shoulders,
Her luscious endeared lips that I could never resist,
Dear god please send me back my angel"

2011-04-10T23:09:00.004+08:00

"The one thing he loved the most in his life is leaving,
There's no turning back time,
No way to erase the mistakes he did to her,
There's nothing left within him,
Just pain and bitterness,
He saw those tears weighing down on her face,
The image replaying at the back of his head,
He's carrying these regrets on his back for the rest of his life,
She was such a beauty,
She did so much she could ever do for him,
She deserves better in life,
She deserves to be happy in life,
He broke her heart."

2011-03-26T00:53:00.002+08:00

"Exiled from the existence of this world,
Intoxicated and desolated,
Mind exhausted from the memories that replay,
Buried alive grasping for air,
Bruised and bleeding inside out,
Letdown and bitterness fills the soul,
A deep wound that could never heal,
Wishing death to make it all fade away"

2011-03-11T13:56:00.002+08:00

"Unconscious in the amidst of a world of your own,
Thoughts and emotions spinning around you,
The weight of the world seemingly pulling you down,
Muscles contracting uneasily and lungs clenching like a fist,
You feel choked and tied up like a dead knot"

Who are we?
What is the purpose of life?
Why do we exist?
When will we depart?

Emotions take control of us unknowingly.
It's tough making decisions.
Quarrels and disagreements occur.
We all make mistakes.
Forgiveness always doesn't come easy.
If we could only feel emotionless.
It's impossible.
But I know..
Death is peaceful.

The 22nd

2010-10-22T23:55:00.002+08:00

Happy One Year Anniversary Baby (:

22nd of Oct 2010 marks the day of our first whole year together..
It's been an awesome year spent with you,
We had our ups and downs,
We brave storms in our way,
We love and give all that we could,
We were always there for each other no matter what,
We spend almost every single day together,
& we made the best memories and times of our life, side by side.

I brought baby to Prego at Fairmont Hotel for a scrumptious italian meal,
The food was absolutely delicious (:
After the meal, we walked around Raffles city to do a little shopping..
We bought each other sweets and stuff (:
Well i got for her cabury chocolates and soft nougats,
& she got me cute and cool candies!

P.S. My baby goh is the BEST girlfriend in the whole wide world!!! (:

"Collector's Edition"

2010-07-01T19:00:00.006+08:00

Calling everyone out there!
Does anyone has a copy of the latest Her World 50th anniversary magazine?
Please contact me asap if you've got it, I'm willing to buy it from you!

_______________________________________________________

Strike this off, cause..
I FOUND IT (:

"I'm Still Alive"

2010-07-01T02:07:00.005+08:00

I've been so distant from so many things.
Finding what are the priorities in my life.
And this blog here is definitely not on my list.
Guess I'm back to give this guy a good work out after a long time.

For starters, let's just say I'm a total change man now.
I'm not gonna blabber every single information that occurred from the start.
If I do, it'll be a long cheesy essay and bloodshot eyes for the readers.
Let me just get straight to the point.
About 8 months ago, found the love of my life.
She's awesome btw. (I would marry her now if I could)
Settled into a stable relationship.
Put my full dedication and commitment to it.
Of course, there's the up and the downs. No one's fucking perfect.
Been giving my best and staying strong for this for the past 8 months.
As you can see, I'm dead serious for her.
In a nutshell, I love her to bits. Yes. I do.

Sadly, this has leaded to many misunderstandings to my friends out there.
Everyone out there thinks I'm dead.
But surprise, I'm still kicking and breathing.
I would say I've to apologize for neglecting all of you.
It's impossible for me to totally give you a detailed explanation.
I just hope you guys out there do understand the importance of this for me.
And that I'm setting my stepping stones for my future.
If you think this is bullshit to you, so be it, I've said what I had to say.
Those of you who really understands my situation, god bless and thanks.

Life's like a battlefield.
You don't know at which point of time or where what's gonna hit you.
I'm just doing my best to achieve what I can in my life.
Yes. It's tough. It fucks you up.
But I'm determined to win in the end.

2009-11-23T02:18:00.002+08:00

Initiate

Operation

Quit

Smoking,

For

The

Good

Health

Wealth.

2009-11-05T12:48:00.009+08:00

OMGZ I KNOW IT'S BEEN A CENTURY SINCE I BLOGGED

Anyway life's been good for me, I'm in love with someone deeply (:

She changed me in many ways I didn't know I would.

She handles things totally different from any other girls I've met.

She's a special one. One in a million, a rare gem to stumble upon.

And i'm really lucky to have her by my side.

(Haha she's just right beside me)

Some might know who she is, some might not.

In time to come, my r/s with her will be more open!

-
JUST FOR LAUGHS!

2009-10-15T19:29:00.003+08:00

"Shortie."

I know everybody must be thinking..

I'm finally picking up my lazy fingers to blog.

All apologies for this long retreat.

School has started since last week.

So I've been rather busy and tired.

Last week, the first 3 days of school was the most tiring.

I had to force myself to adjust back to my school's body clock.

No more sleeping at 6am in the crack of dawn, it's waking up.

Hail W14K.

My class has been rly awesome (: love you guys.

Second week only and we're all pretty united.

Modules this sem are much tougher than the previous.

Triple science, maths and cognitive.

Interesting? Sighhh I know. It sucks.

But after all, I'm coping quite well right now.

I'll work hard, I'll do my best.

Hopefully it stays this way.

2009-09-23T22:01:00.003+08:00

Nights with na, fatmaid and nat has been rly fun!

Tons of photos, stories, incidents, jokes, impersonating, eating..

Sighhh missed out on the xlb buffet they had at Holland today.

I was suppose to go at first, but I woke up today feeling like shit.

Falling terribly sick with sorethroat and slight cough.

Must be too much late nights, smoking and too little water intake.
I hope I will get well soon, hate the sick feeling.

And the rubber band in my mouth for my braces is fucking irritating.

I've been a big spender for the past few days and last week too.

Haha okay apart from shopping which it's an essential need for me.

Sighh splurging too much money on cab fare.

And also cigs..

it somehow turned to one pack a day when I go out most of the time.

Gotta cut down on expenditure big time.

If not in a blink of an eye, all my money's goneeee.

I hate the feeling of being broke.

Need to start working out!

Thanks to all the buffets, supper and drinking.. I'm growing fat.

Maybe I shall head to the gym or jog in the park tml.

But there's a lazy bug in me that stops me from doing it.

Mindfuck myself: "Gotta lose weight. Gotta lose weight. Gotta lose weight. Gotta lose weight. Gotta lose weight. Gotta lose weight."

2009-09-17T17:03:00.003+08:00

"Don't leave me hanging here

This feeling suffocates me

I see you getting more distant

So turn back and pull me closer

Speak to me from your heart"

-
I'm 18 and legal now! Rejoice!

Haha thanks for all the birthday wishes everybody (:

These past 2 weeks has been fun for me!

Last weds - BBQ at pasir ris

Last sunday - XLB buffet

Tues - Life talks and drinking

Weds - Family dinner

And more plans to come!

This friday (tomorrow) - Clubbing at rebel

This sat - Jap buffet lunch at Akira

I'm home alone now. So bored.

And i miss someone.

Oh wells, I shall blast my music and search for movies to watch.

Later in the night, crashing na's place then heading to town! (:

2009-09-14T03:20:00.004+08:00

THANK YOU GUYS FOR THE BIRTHDAY SURPRISE!

XLB (xiao long bao) buffet just now!

Fuck we almost made crystal jade bankrupt.

We ate tons & tons & tons of xlb.. it was pure massacre.

Haha even the tables around us were shocked by the quantity we gobbled.

Max, all the best in army man!

Please don't whack your sergeant k?

Finally my work has come to an end!

Hahaha I'm so fucking happy okay!

Plus I got my pay cheque alr!

Maybe gonna bank in tml!

I wanna get my beauty sleep alr!

I haven't been getting much rest at all for the last 13 days ):

2009-09-10T18:10:00.006+08:00

"Darkness stalked us through the night

As we laid in the sanctuary of each other's arms

With two heartbeats beating as one

The break of dawn awaits us"

Thanks for all that organized and were present at ytd's bbq!

I really had fun and I appreciate it!

Next year we'll plan something different alright!

Thank you for the present and card (:

I love it.

And I love you.

I wished the night could last forever.

2009-09-08T17:06:00.003+08:00

Here I am blogging from work

It's dead boring here
The weather's killing me

I feel awfully sticky from the humidity

The thirst for drinks are never ending

Sleepiness is getting into me from the lack of rest

Seeing customer's faces and answering their questions isn't fun

People-watching has become a daily routine

Facebook, youtube and msn is my main source of entertainment

And luckily mitch is here with me

Thank god work is ending at the end of this week

However, on a lighter note!

I'm having a bbq birthday celebration tml after work with my friends!

Argh fuck here comes another customer

Bye for now

2009-09-02T09:42:00.002+08:00

Goodbye goodbye

I see the bridges of my past burning

as everything falls to ashes
-

Here i stand

I'm starting a fresh chapter in life

with someone special

to embark on a brand new story

2009-08-26T17:54:00.017+08:00

To a very special girl who's in my mind now:
(haha you know who you are)

(P.S Can't wait to see you tml)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

2009-08-23T13:39:00.004+08:00

Life is unpredictable

It scares you at every corner

It shocks you with the unexpected

Even if it's something that brings you down

All that happened in your life happens for a reason

Through struggle and sacrifices

You will really learn and understand

Well I've been through shit

But the thing is

I'm not going to go through the same shit again

2009-08-19T00:51:00.004+08:00

Everything in the past fades instantly in a blink of an eye.

All the sacrifices and commitment put into one r/s gone.

I had to undergo tons of gruelling pain and tiredness.

Haha you ask if it's fair? Hell no, it wasn't fair to me at all.

But what the heck, when is life ever fair?

In the end, through this life experience I have found someone.

Someone that pulled me through this shit.

Someone that I will definitely cherish for life.

Someone that I can never ever afford to lose her.

Someone whom I would take a bullet for.

Someone that has always been here for me everyday.

Someone I wanna see attending my wedding in the future.

Someone I wanna grow old with till I die.

Shanna Long.

And with her, I've gotten to know so many good friends.

Finally, ask yourself this.

When it all falls down, who's always gonna be there for you?

The answer is your friends.

2009-08-10T05:30:00.003+08:00

Love is blind

Love is magical

Love is dramatic

Love is unpredictable

Love is overwhelming

Love is mysterious

Love is intense

Love is unforgettable

Love is remarkable

Love is demanding

Love is sweet

Love is inspirational

And..

Last but not least, love is pain too

2009-08-10T03:50:00.007+08:00

http://www.mtv.com/videos/16-and-pregnant-ep6-catelynn/1615511/playlist.jhtml

FATMAID INTRODUCE THIS TO ME
I WATCHED IT AND I FUCKING CRIED KAY
IT'S DAMN DAMN SAD, WATCH IT
):

2009-08-09T15:55:00.009+08:00

When I am bored, I visit I-am-bored.com.

It makes complete sense, doesn't it?

And I saw some rather amusing pictures.

Sex chat room fail.

Guest_705 says: Asleep?

Guest_705 says: Wake up.

Guest_705 says: WAKE THE FUCK UP!

Go nascar!
I think it was tattooed by an 8 year old kid.

Best model runway show ever.
It includes interaction between audience and models.

Failure.
Rule #1 of an emo kid:
Never ever leave the ketchup sauce lying around

A zombie's ultimate wet dream.
ALL YOU CAN EAT BRAINS-BUFFET.
But honestly saying.. where the fuck did all those brains come from?
AND.. what/who's brains are those?

What if my kid turns out to be like him in the future.
Damn, I hope not.

2009-08-09T04:05:00.008+08:00

Meet Baroness (Sienna Miller) from G.I Joe

I THINK SHE LOOKS DARN GOOD WITH HER BLACK HAIR AND SPECS IN THE SHOW

DAMN SHE'S HOT

I CAN REPEAT THAT ONE LAST TIME

DAMN SHE'S HOT

2009-08-08T03:11:00.003+08:00

"Lying awake in the cold nights

Hours before the break of dawn

Helplessly tossing and turning in bed

Drifting in a vast sea of thoughts

With emptiness and loneliness caving in

Like a shipwreck that's stranded at the bottom of the waters

Trapped and never to be noticed"

2009-08-06T23:43:00.002+08:00

Note to self:

Now the one you once loved is leaving

Just like a balloon that slips off your fingers

It floats up to the sky and never comes back

All you can do is just look up and watch it go

2009-07-31T04:24:00.007+08:00

I was ransacking through my kitchen's cupboard for tuna, when my eyes abruptly diverted it's attention to many cans of cream pasta sauce. They were stacked on top of each other nicely, untouched for quite awhile. A feeling surged deep within me. My motion froze and heart paused. My mind started running like a record player.. of certain memories in the past. Those pasta sauce weren't just any ordinary thing, it had a meaning back then. And for that moment, I've realised I haven't cooked pasta in ages. I've realised I have lost my purpose in cooking it. I have left those cans of pasta sauce stagnant there..

ever since, she left.

Only she knows why.

2009-07-29T19:11:00.002+08:00

Remember, a promise of our friendship?

I've made all the effort I could, but did you?

Time and time I waited for you to contact me, but did you?

I know you're busy with school, but is it that hard to spare a min for me?

Will you talk to me only when I'm on my death bed?

I've no idea what's going through your mind, so if you don't speak, who knows?

Well nobody can force you. In the end, it's all up to you.

I've rest my case.

2009-07-26T13:34:00.003+08:00

"Is there someone out there who will love me as much as I will?"

I'm so terribly sick

It's been awhile since I've fallen sick so badly

The feeling sure isn't good, super weak

Sore throat, irritating coughs, runny nose,

spinning headaches and burning fever

Wow you must be thinking, nice right?

I've been blaming my sister cause I think she's the one that spread it to me

So pissed off, I don't wanna get cooped up at home in my rm

I wanna go school and have fun kay

Oh wells I ain't got a choice at this point of time

Sighhzzz I can't possibly go school like this

Firstly they'll kick me back home when finds out my temp is 38.5

Secondly I don't wanna risk spreading it to my classmates

Thirdly I think I might faint before even reaching school

Imma sad, sick and dying child ):

Save me

2009-07-19T00:55:00.003+08:00

HAHA EMMA WATSON IS PRETTY HOT SOMEHOW

(SPOILERS ALERT READ WITH YOUR OWN RISK)

Harry potter sucks balls k!

Like seriously, half blood prince was the worst!

Full of crap talking, and so little action.

The ending was like the shittiest ending ever seen.

Maybe it's to keep us in suspense for the last one.

BUT STILL, don't give such an unfinished ending.

Blah blah blah, and dumbledore died.

Ooooooh so "sad" ): (WTF NOT)

And fatmaid was disturbing me throughout the show!
Haha but it was funny! W/o her i think i'll be bored to tears.

2009-07-18T15:27:00.005+08:00

Across Five Aprils - A Year From Now

__________________________________________

Complete with total adoration
My Gift to you, my heart was yours.
In 10 weeks you shaped it, in one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and layed at your feet,

that first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark.
I still have these memories but we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember. Cause thats all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
You knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So we'll go our own ways,

and hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you.
Hopefully, you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,

but I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake.
I just wish the story didn't end this way.
Because I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked of where we'd be a year from now?

2009-07-05T15:40:00.003+08:00

Pens are down and the book is closed

Story has come to an end

No turning back no more

The next chapter of my life awaits

The flame we had has turned to ashes

As I watch the ashes fade alongside the wind

Life is fragile

But I believe through this experience

I'll be stronger than ever before

With memories sealed deep down in our hearts

Keep walking on with no regrets

The love, the past, the memory

2009-07-01T15:15:00.004+08:00

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2009-06-28T03:20:00.003+08:00

The Fray - Never Say Never

Don't let me go
You'll always be my other half
I don't want you to slip away
Let's pick up the pieces
And forget about the past
You're all that matters
I miss everything about you
Collide back in my arms
I need your warmth

2009-06-25T02:39:00.003+08:00

Come back home
And pick me up from this mess

Only you, can fill this emptiness within

I don't want this story to end

So here I am, with my heart in my hands

2009-06-14T00:28:00.006+08:00

Stood there in a state of trance

As blurry walls start closing in

Chest heaved heavily in strain

Poignant thoughts breaking through

With my heart in my hands

Party at Jackey's house on fri with Na and everyone.

Haha couple's game was rly funny but quite awkward too!

I was feeling like wayy too hot to do much stuff.

His house was kinda like a sauna (jackey i hope you're not seeing this)

Surprisingly I didn't drink much at all, only some beer.

Was rather stoic and felt tired somehow.

Haha then crashed onto the bed in the room to lie down for awhile.

After for awhile, most of the ppl left.

So we all went into the bedrm to chill in the aircon.

Na was like raping clara, then mitch also raped na.

Haha it was damn funny and stupid.

Omg na humping skills is power TTM. (must teach me ah haha)

Okay thats was just super random!

Then around 5 plus in the morning, mitch and me left to go home.

2009-06-11T20:45:00.003+08:00

A Picture Means A Thousand Words

& So Does Our Memories

We Wrote A Story Together

One That Is So Breathtaking & Life Changing

Wishing It Could Last An Eternity

But Every Story Has An Ending

Flowers Bloom Beautifully

However It Also Withers Too

2009-06-04T03:51:00.003+08:00

ATTACK ATTACK IS THE SHITZZZ

IF YOU'RE A HARDCORE FAG LIKE ME, YOU'LL UNDERSTAND

AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF, THEIR MUSIC IS CHRISTIAN

NOT SOME DEMONIC DEFYING SHITHOLES

MAY GOD BE WITH US ALL

Anyway updating time!

GOSH hell it is fucking fun playing versus mode on L4D!

I know some ppl will be blabbering.. "OMG NOW THEN YOU KNOW AH"

Whatever la I don't give a fuck. HAHAHAHAHA.

8 of us played that day -

Me, daryl, clara, hilary, shanna, leon, jackey and mitch.

It's kick-ass when you play with your whole bunch of friends in lan!

Crazy screaming of vulgarities and the smell of victory/losing!

YOU FEEL ME MY NIGGAS

More L4D sessions to goooo, thats definite!

Haha overnight last night at Ch's place.

Talk cock sing song.

Laugh at derrick lose at poker on fb.

See ch break his drum kit by sitting on it.

An earthquake when derrick's hip slammed the table when standing up.

Watch hardcore music and britain's got talent vids on youtube.

Head to seven eleven to get some drinks.

Growling tummies of derrick and me.

Stole ch's younger brother's cup noodles to eat.

Catch exciting soccer matches of ch playing Pes 09.

Laugh at players sliding each other's ankles.

Making stupid live commentary of the game.

Eyelids got heavy out of a sudden.

Lied on ch's bed, and boom, i'm in dream-land.

I'M FUCKING SLPY NOW

NIGHTS PEEPS

2009-06-02T12:04:00.010+08:00

EEEWWW DON VITO'S GROPING SOME CHICK'S TITS

LUCKY FAT BASTARD HE MUST'VE DRUGGED THEM

VIVA LA BAM IS THE SEXXX

DO WATCH IT!

WILDBOYZ OWNS THE WORLD

SEE THE DAREDEVIL DUO DO FUNNY SHIT

GOOOO WATCH ITTT!

NOW!

2009-06-02T02:23:00.002+08:00

YOU MIGHT BE WONDERING THE FUCK IS THAT

Hahahahaha ain't it adorable!

It's called a Kinkajou. Pretty cool name eh.

Just found out after watching Wildboyz!

SO FUCKING CUTE I WANT IT AS MY PET

AND CHECK THIS OUT

Even Paris has a Kinkajou as her pet!

HAHAHA BIMBO WANTS A KINKY PET

2009-06-01T00:40:00.003+08:00

HEINEKEN IS LOVE

Hahaha went drinking with Jon, Arvin and Ch ytd at sixth ave!

It was damnn funnyyy.

Jon was getting high and doing his stupid dance moves.

We drank ten big bottles!

I was feeling sleeepy, then fell aslp in the bus and ended up at yishun!

WTF FUCKING STUPID KAY.

I WAS DAMN SHOCK.

At that time it was past 12 alr, so called my dad up to pick me up.

Haha save fucking cab fare!

VIDEO OF JON GETTING HIGH IS IN MY FB!

AND I SOUND FUCKING HIGH TOO!

HAHAHAHAHA!

2009-05-30T12:45:00.002+08:00

MEANIE

MOPEY!

Haha webcammed with Becca some time this week for fun.

She saw my superfuckingcute hamster, Mischa!

She says she wants to date it cos she's sooo adorable.

Then I gave her a tour around my whole room.

Oh if you're wondering.. Meanie is her, and Mopey is me!

Haha it's our nicknames she created.

Becca is a mean bitch. She beats me all the time in school.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

I know it's been ga-zillion light years since I've updated my blog.

Been really tired and busy with school and tests.

But thank god, it's my holiday now!

However only 2 pathetic weeks, it's like gonna pass damn fast.

Oh wells, better than nothing!

So fucking boring today.

Euge's down with high fever and all.

Sighhh only can see her next week or sth.

Thinking of going gym later.

Not sure yet, I'll seeee how.

2009-05-10T15:45:00.002+08:00

"Hey gorgeous, you make my world a beautiful place"

Omg sorry guys, I know I haven't been blogging. Been really busy with school, and dragonboat training has started alr. Lack of sleep, totally worn out these few days. 3 times a week, and the training's really gruelling and tough. The muscle aches from the first training almost killed me. And every training last for 5 hrs, ends at around 9 plus. Sighh by the time I reach home, I'm extremely wasted by then but I still gotta do my work and stuff. Oh wells, gotta bear with it. I believe it'll make me stronger as weeks pass by. In the end, my hard work will pay off. The db team is rather big now. I know it's bad to say this, but I hope more people will start quitting the team. It gives me a bigger chance to get into the team to compete in competitions, only 20 people are gonna get selected INCLUDING THE SENIORS. Yeahh.. so it's really difficult.

And I'm sorry to all my friends out there, haven't been meeting you guys ever since school started. It's really hectic with school and training ): I hope you guys understand yeah. I promise to do my best to arrange time for meet-up kay.

And lastly, I'm glad I've got Euge by my side with her support and love. I love you baby <3

2009-04-27T22:57:00.002+08:00

I've been waiting..

And i'm glad that

you've came back home baby <3

Nights will never be how it used to be

No more tossing around in bed

Or tears that soak the sheets

My heart's whole again

I love you

2009-04-21T21:58:00.003+08:00

"I'll give you everything,

If there was something left"

All apologies, haven't been blogging much!

Well ytd was the start of school for me in rp.

It was quite alright, don't know the whole class at all.

Errr except my team members. And I like my team!

May I present my science team: Zak, Rebecca and Rachel (:

So basically ytd we had science lesson, and had to learn abt blood.

I was kinda lost at certain parts. (What the hell is antigen)

We were asked to do a presentation on it, which didn't rly turn out that well.

But I'm sureeee we'll do better next time guys!

And as for today, it was maths lesson.

It was a new team, didn't really click with this team though.

But they were all nice, just that they're quiet.

Luckily Zak was in the team with me!

Don't mess with her ah. Hahahaha.

She's like a small cute girl, but she's super hardworking!

So me and her figured out maths sums and diff strategies.

And eventually it was a brilliant success.

We caught the grasp of it! (a round of applause pls)

Then I moved on to explain to my team mates.

And also helped out in Becca's team! :D

And as usual, amongst the class, there had to be a 'pest'.

This particular one really made my hair stand and my ears crumble.

Cos his irritance is impossible to miss out and his voice leeches on you.

I didn't say anything about him in class, I'm just keeping it cool.

But today after he left, we all voiced out! It felt good.

Aiyooo kaaay justin enough of being mean.

Oh wait, it's not being mean, it's just a fact.

(thumbs up)

2009-04-13T16:20:00.005+08:00

Gosh I didn't know Marley and me was such a good show.

I caught it today till abt 5 am then crashed to slp.

I really enjoyed it, the whole storyline was awesome.

Yeah, and as everyone knows, Marley died.

Haha I heard people who saw it in the cinema cried buckets over it.

Well it was fucking sad, I definitely have to agree.

To be honest, a little tears was involve in the process of me watching too.

Damn I want a dog too. Seriously.. ever since I was a boy.

A cute little young handsome husky puppy will do *wink wink

Oh wells if only my parents were animal lovers.

My mum's kinda hostile towards them, especially dogs.

And as for my dad, he wants to kill every single cat he sees.

I guess I gotta wait till later in life to get one.

2009-04-11T01:20:00.002+08:00

Memories are sealed in a tiny chestbox

Kept in the corner of my beating heart

It holds brilliance and everlasting love

Locked and never to be touched

You are the only key to unlock it

Things don't always turn out the way we wanted

It opposes your way with many obstacles

You can try to get pass those boundaries

But eventually you'll wear out

This candle of hope is burning out

Will you save it?

I'm falling into a bottomless pit

Will you catch me?

2009-04-09T18:19:00.003+08:00

"It's time to forgo all you ever wanted,
As you enter into your next phase in life,
Bury all the burden and tiredness off your shoulders,
Don't stop at the crossroads for too long,
Run with the wind towards a path you've chosen,
We are to be blamed and faults are pushed around,
But in the end, it comes down to one thing,
There's no point hanging there by a moment,
When things aren't even working out,
Life's fucking unfair, face it."

2009-04-07T03:11:00.003+08:00

Sun fades and the night falls

Solitary moment in the dark and cold

With only one heart beating, not two

The past slams hard through my head

Thoughts devour my mind and soul

As I glance around the room slowly

My eyes paused at the empty bed

Where she used to lie, all tucked in

With me watching over her like an angel

She sleeps ever so soundly and safely

It just felt so, magical and perfect

I wish the moment could last,

Forever

2009-04-06T04:24:00.005+08:00

BOY OH BOY

MEET OLGA KURYLENKO

SHE'S ONE HOT BLOODED CREATURE

GOSH SHE'S SMOKING HOT

OUCH I'M ON FIRE

2009-04-05T17:48:00.002+08:00

Sun rays shimmered through my windows

I squirmed my eyes in irritation

Fluttering my eyelids as I woke up

I felt a stinging pain piercing

As I stared into the mirror

I couldn't recognize myself for a moment

Swollen bloodshot eyes

Faint stains of tears covering my face and hands

I froze in my tracks

Deep in my thoughts, I wondered..

"When is this terrible story going to end?"

2009-04-05T02:36:00.002+08:00

Everything around me seemed to slow down
My head laid down on the ground

My muscles relaxes to a soothing floating feeling

I gazed deeply into the clear night sky

Silence enveloped the breezy atmosphere

Only to hear the deep breaths of my heaving chest

And the sound of speeding cars buzzing through my ears

White fluffy clouds can be seen drifting lazily across the sky

The stars stood in the darkness like little sparkles

Shining beautifully just like how you are

Reminding me of all the things we did as one

The past the love the memory

Never to be forgotten indefinitely

Locked up in this trembling heart

2009-03-30T13:20:00.008+08:00

I've been watching your world from afar

I've been trying to be where you are

And I've been secretly falling apart, unseen

To me, you're strange and you're beautiful

You'd be so perfect with me, but you just can't see

You turn every head but you don't see me

Fucking blogger is opposing me.

I tried to insert a youtube vid here, but it just couldn't.

I've no idea why. Oh wells screw it, I got much more things to wry abt.

I'm feeling frustrated and irritated abt rp.

Called their fucking school, and no one's picking up.

The thing is I have no clue abt the mode of payment.

Looks like it's by giro, but what's the procedure?

Luckily sissy's there buying her lappy, I called her up to help me enquire.

Thanks sissy (:

Today's not a day for me, everything's plunging down on me.

Tons of problems and worries. Shit hits the fan.

Talking to joy online now, she's been really helping me out with my thoughts. Thanks girl (:

"Our mind works in a form of a maze,

And I'm dying trying to figure my way out"

2009-03-26T15:42:00.007+08:00

CHANGI ALOHA CHALET

Met up with the guys at daryl's house.

Went to giant to buy all the stuff needed.

After that headed to changi village to rent bikes then cycled to the chalet!

Pretty fucked up leg injuries from a bike fall on the first night alr!

Just chilled around, eating dinner and drinking.

Arvin played the acoustic guitar while I play with my lappy.

I was suppose to go bike cycling, but I got drunk.

I can't remember shit at all, only bits and pieces.

I know I was vomiting like a merlion and en en and joy took care of me.

Haha thank you veh much guys! Sorry if I blabbered alot of rubbish!

And after I got sober, joy got higgghhh. Aiyo she was so poor thing la.

She couldn't puke at all and she had a splitting headache.

After awhile, she managed to settle down to sleep.

Around 6 plus in the morning, they came back from cycling.

Then we just slacked around playing cards and talking.

One by one, we all start heading to bed.

But I didn't sleep much I guess, only for 2-3 hrs.

When I woke up almost everyone was awake alr.

Haha they were playing risk.

I was feeling rather bored and tired.

Then went upstairs and took out my lappy cos en en wanna play l4d.
Haha and they camwhored on my lappy too.

After that continued with bbq-ing in the night for dinner.

After dinner, brendon's dad fetched us home!

2009-03-23T18:57:00.003+08:00

KATY PERRY IS ONE HOTTIE THAT CAN SING

OMG LEAH DIZON SO CUTE IN THIS PHOTO

Anyway today's a rather boring day.

I've been at home. Didn't feel like going out I guess, down with flu.

Been hunting for songs, watching tv, face-booking, l4d-ing..

and now blogged as you can see.

Maybe heading to chalet for a stayover either tml or weds!

Must go to gym soon too. Haha i've been having a big appetite!

Can't wait for my dinner, mum's cooking :O

2009-03-22T06:07:00.013+08:00

STAYOVER AT ARVIN'S PLACE

Haha we helped him to paint his wall.

Now it looks so muuccchh better!

I'm now blogging in the dark and cold..

Ch and arvin's sleeping, while me and derrick are still glued to our lappy.

Gosh I feel so bloated from supper just now.

I made pasta for them, and I'm glad they liked it!

I've been cooking pasta all the time la, needless to say! Haha!

I not sure if I'm gonna sleep, it's like 6 plus in the morning now.

Just played L4D online. I was so pissed, I got killed by tanker like 3 times.

This is the first time it happened to me. It was lagging like crazy.

I think it's cos of arvin's internet, or cos of the server?

Anyway whatever, I prefer playing at home! Haha.

2009-03-20T18:51:00.003+08:00

SIGHHH somehow a part of me wants poly to hurry start.

It's getting rather boring these few days..

I think poly will be fun i guess, besides the part of waking up early.

I wonder if there's anyone I know in my class!

I actually I do know one alr, just made friends with her recently.

I'm off to go eat dinner with my parents at serangoon!

Last but not least,

What cca should I take in rp?

Canoeing or dragonboat?

2009-03-20T14:27:00.015+08:00

I'M AT PARAGON'S STARBUCKS NOW

Haha we webcamwhored with my laptop!

Rach suppose to do her homework la, but she's too stupid.

This starbucks sucks, there's no power source to charge my batt.

Alright rach's pestering me to let her see her whatever dumbass blogs!

BYEBYE

2009-03-18T01:17:00.010+08:00

DAY OUT WITH EUGE HUNNY

Haha walked around in heeren and ate at the fish & co on the top flr!

Then followed her around shopping in wisma.

Chilled at toast box for awhile then head home.

On the train, I took out my laptop and took some pics (:

And we did something damn cool too!

We played left for dead in the train using my laptop's mouse pad!

(without a mouse)

Hahaha it was damn funnnnnny la.

We not bad k, lasted for long before a fucking witch attacked us!

2009-03-09T00:49:00.002+08:00

Who kicked a hole in the sky
so the heavens would cry over me?
Who stole the soul from the sun
in a world come undone at the seams?
Let there be love, Let there be love

I hope the weather is calm
as you sail up your heavenly stream
Suspended clear in the sky
are the words that we sing in our dreams

Let there be love, Let there be love,
Let there be love, Let there be love

Come on baby blue
Shake up your tired eyes
The world is waiting for you
May all your dreaming fill the empty sky

But if it makes you happy
Keep on clapping
Just remember I'll be by your side
And if you don't let go, it's gonna pass you by

2009-03-08T00:37:00.008+08:00

The day out in Haji Lane with Pangboon and Gab!
Haha thank god Gab works in Sup there.
If not we won't have a good place to chill.
We just hanged out there throughout the day, fooling around.
Haha it's pretty fun and relaxing you know.
It shall be my new hang out place from now on, disturb Gab there!
After that in the evening, headed to amk to meet Kengboon they all.
They played majong, while I just chill out, was feeling tired.

2009-03-06T19:00:00.003+08:00

"Thanks for being here for me girl <3"

Overnight at hilary's house ytd with shanna, kim, hilary and jacky.
It was raining fucking heavily,
and me and long dropped at the wrong bus stop.
Luckily hil's mum came to pick us up, she's so nice.
Haha drinking, playing cards, and talking cock underneath the condo.
Around 5 plus, cleaned up the place, and headed back to her crib.
Haha helped kim do some of her maths homework, then crashed to bed.
I wish I could sleep longer, but I had to get up at 12 noon to go wheelock.
Well I'm working at the IT fair for Epson, so there was a briefing today.
I'm pretty worn out, I wonder if the briefing got into my head.
Now waiting for my mum to cook dinner, eat then head out to meet pangboon.

"I've been picking up the pieces

again and again"

2009-03-04T02:43:00.000+08:00

You loved it when my heart dropped,
you paused, stopped, and walked away
Full of content that it went your way

These cuts that i've caused are never to deep to heal
Peel back the bandage, see a scar from countless careless things

And feel yourself drifting, pulled away

Well nothing feels real anymore
I'm not taking my time anymore
To show you how i feel
To show you who i am
Cause it's locked away

We all need to find our way
Cut the loss, just walk away

Now head towards the light, the dark has no place here

I don't feel real, and don't feel right
This pain is beating.
You don't feel real, I don't feel real

Well nothing feels real anymore
I'm not taking my time anymore

Now head towards the light, the dark has no place here

Well nothing feels real anymore
I'm not taking my time anymore
To show you how i feel
To show you who i am
Cause it's locked away

The things we think about at night never lose taste
Take the close to find something greater
This wall has finally reached its end
Its higher ground, lets make a stand
Did you ever think that we would get this high
Pull back the sheets to find an ending that you prayed for

Now head towards the light the dark has no place here

2009-02-27T20:50:00.002+08:00

Sia is really awesome, I'm becoming a big fan of her.
Well at a point of time like this, I really need her songs to guide me through my days.

I saw you cry today
The pain may fill you
I saw you shy away
The pain will not kill you

You made me smile today
You spoke with many voices
We travelled for miles today
Shared expressions voiceless

It has to end

Living in your head
Without anything to numb you
Living on the edge
Without anything to numb you

It has to end to begin

Begin an end today
Give and not given
You made a friend today
Kindred soul cracked spirit

It has to end to begin

Living in your head
Without anything to numb you
Living on the edge
Without anything to numb you

Living in your head
Without anything to numb you
Living on the edge
Without anything to numb you

It has began

2009-02-25T15:07:00.001+08:00

Help
I have done it again
I have been here many times before

Hurt myself again today and the worst part is that there's no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me
Wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

Ouch
I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found

Yeah
I think I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me
Wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me
Wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

2009-02-24T12:29:00.002+08:00

I'm hanging by a moment
Reminiscence of all the things we've done
I'm aching inside cos I missed it so much
I understand the stress you need to cope with
So fear not I'll always be running right behind you
Here I am holding this candle of hope
Don't forget me don't lose hope my dear
I'm standing here with my arms open
As I wait for your return

2009-02-21T23:30:00.003+08:00

"All I need is the air you breathe
And your arms to cuddle in"

Happy birthday John!
Overnight kbox was crazy screaming no-voice-already fun.
Haha we sang like from 12 plus till 6.
This is the first time I ever karaoked for so long.
After that, everyone dragged their half dead bodies home.
I didn't sleep, cos I was scared i couldn't wake up to meet euge for lunch.
So i just killed time, but kept falling asleep though.

Shit I only had four hrs of sleep.
Urghh my parents waked me up to go out for dinner just now.
Well gonna get my beauty sleep later.
Pimples are breaking out due to late nights and lack of rest.

2009-02-19T21:48:00.000+08:00

I've fallen from grace
Quivering in fear and uncertainty
I've actually seen this coming
But didn't expect it would hit me that fast
It's hard to comprehend what will happen next
I'm holding this candle of hope
Careful don't blow it out
Believe we'll make it through
I'll fight till the end

2009-02-10T20:07:00.004+08:00

"Just stay with me,
Lay with me now"

It's been ages since I've stepped into blogger.
For the past few wks, been busy with cny stuff.
Wanted to upload all the photos, but it's with my sister.
I'll upload it once i get a hold of it yeah!
This year cny was rather boring I guess. (except $)
Maybe i'm growing sick of the same old routine every year.
Oh wells it's over.

Stayed over at Kb's house ytd.
Haha it was fun. Majong and card games are the best.
Kb taught me abt majong. It's an addictive game..
Thanks to him my shi-fu. Now i know how to play!
And heehee I won them at poker, blackjack and titee :D

And when I got home today, I had to face my mum's black face.
I guessed as much. Hmmm it isn't abt the stayover.
During dinner just now, she started ranting again.
She has been giving shit since last week abt me getting a job.
FUCK AS IF I DON'T WANT A FUCKING JOB.
I just have to get a job soon by hook or crook to shut her up.
But cotton on's only hiring in march.
So yeah, I think i'll get some ear plugs.
Only BMTH's songs are the cure to my sorrows.

Now I'm trying to figure out abt my NS registration.
I've no idea why I didn't get my Singpass ID.
Did the postman ate it? Rarrrrrrrrr fuck it
Oh wells gotta call up to the NS centre to ask them to issue me a new one.
SO IRRITATING SERIOUSLY

Ah fuck my rants
Have a good day guys
Bye

2009-01-24T13:50:00.002+08:00

XIN NIAN KUAI LE HONGBAO NA LAI

Happy chinese new year to all!

I love this occasion in the time of the year.

It's fun to gather with family and friends to eat, gamble, play.. etc.

And not to forget, everybody loves the red packets.

I'm glad I bought my new year clothes alr!

I bought a shirt, and Euge bought 2 other tees for me. Thanks baby (:

Hah I'm starting work next weds. SIGGGGHHHHHH.

Well, I don't mind working actually.

But work starts at around 9 and it's a paya lebar.

Seriously, that is like so early and so far. (OMG I SOUND SPOILED)

Grrr anyway shouldn't be complaining, at least i've got a job now.

And luckily with 2 good friends accompanying me in this.

Wondering what I'm working as?

Haha I'm not too sure myself, all I know it's in Singapore Post.

I think it's some kind of stamping of letters or something..

2009-01-15T02:56:00.003+08:00

Comes a point in life when everything snaps

Trapped in a crisis without a head or tail

Limits going overboard and losing control

A person's mind take charge of its own body and soul

Things that were kept inside burst in outrage

Mistakes that were made were dug out to the surface

Broken down in sorrows and bitterness

What's the meaning of life?

2009-01-12T01:52:00.003+08:00

"It's time,

I become a better man."

To all collecting results later,

all the best guys!

Have confidence and faith, you can do it!

God bless (:

2009-01-08T00:43:00.003+08:00

Heineken, anyone?

Twelve.

Yes, 12.

12 of January you say?

It's the moment of truth we all been awaiting for or.. not.

Crucial day indeed, pretty nerve wrecking.

Good or bad? I've got no idea.

I pray for everything to be alright, please be.

If you still don't know what that day defines..

I'll tell you, it's the day of my O level results!

AHHHHHHH..

AHHHHHH..

AHHHHH..

AHHHH..

AHHH..

AHH..

AH.

Wish me luck k? May god be with us all.

Announcement -

For all hardcore mad moshing head banging crowd and fans out there,

PARKWAY DRIVE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE.

I.. REPEAT..

PARKWAY DRIVE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE! (YES IT'S TRUE)

I'm so psyched for this gig. Definitely a fan of their music.

You gotta make 7th of February free for this shit!

For more info -

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=43125743130

I've been way too broke these few days.

Looks like I really need to get a job.

My parents are pestering me to get one.

They said they're sick of giving me cash.

Sighh my mum's been pretty cranky lately.

I've.. been.. doing.. my.. very.. best.. to.. give.. in.. to.. her..

So thats why I need to get a job fast, so I won't have to tolerate her.

Donut factory's hiring staff. I'm most probably heading there to work.

Today kengboon was sucha an awesome brother to treat me to dinner and stuff.

Don't worry bro, after I get my pay, it's my turn to treat. Promise!

And finally,

Happy 17th month sweetheart (:

I love you so much <3

2009-01-01T14:17:00.004+08:00

Happy New Year!

Say hello to 09, and goodbye to 08!

It's been an awesome year.

Time really flashes by quickly.

I wanna thank all my family, friends and love ones for being there with me through 2008. You guys are the best! (:

Let's all wash all the bad memories away, keep the the good ones,

and start our new year with a BANG!

Ytd night was really fuuun with bestie, ian, rosy & fiq!

And definitely, not to forget the fireworks I watched with Euge (:

It was incredible, especially watching it with her.

And to wake up the next morning with her lying beside me in my arms was one the best things that occurred in my life, I love you sweetheart.

2008-12-28T12:02:00.002+08:00

HAPPY X'MAS TO EVERYBODYYY!

BEST WISHES FROM ME TO YOU!

2008-12-18T22:03:00.002+08:00

I'M FINALLY BACK IN SINGAPORE AFTER 8 STRAIGHT DAYS IN TAIWAN! HOME SWEET HOME (: I MISSED SINGAPORE SO MUUUUCH. THE TRIP WASN'T GOOD, DISAPPOINTING. OH WELLS, GLAD TO BE BAAACCKKK!

2008-12-07T11:57:00.004+08:00

OUT WITH MY SISTER YTD

We went to collect Cotton's ashes at Mt. Pleasant Hospital. Then headed to town on a shopping spree ytd! See if there's anything to buy for my taiwan trip next week and check out the sales that are ongoing now. Haha it was fun, but our feet was totally worn out towards the end of the day. After a nice jap meal at Taka, we travelled to Marina Sq to see Muji. Haha bought some accessories for my trip and my sister bought a shoe rack for herself. I'm so nice to help her carry it everywhere we go. We chilled at Killiney Kopitiam for awhile before going home. Lucky we took 162 from Suntec, rather than taking the train home. Ytd we were lucky actually, 162 wasn't packed at all!

Yay euge's coming back tml! Can't wait can't wait, I missed her so freaking much.

Going to CH's house later to catch up with him.

It's been long since we talked!

2008-12-03T22:35:00.022+08:00

OUT WITH ALY AND MARIE TODAY (:

Haha firstly we went to Little India to jalan jalan, had our lunch at a restaurant called Blue Diamond. Marie didn't tell me we're going there, so I wore like a shirt! Sweat like crazy, but it didn't really bother me so it's okay. Then after that, we walked around and decided to go towards Bugis. Suddenly we had the feel to watch a movie, so we went to check it out! Marie tricked us to going up to the highest floor to see movie posters and we found out that we could only buy tix at the ground floor. HAHAHA it was damn funny, should've seen our 'WTF' faces! So in the end, we all agreed to watching Beverly Hills Chihuahua. Haha what a gay show right. The show is abt dogs conversing with each other and humans trying to act like they understand them. But overall, it's quite cool la, it's the test of courage and friendship and love. Haha just that the characters are all dogs!

After the movie, we got back to being little cool explorers and walked to Arab St for fun. Haji Lane's so cool, i wish i had more cash right now to shop there. The stuff ain't cheap. And as you walk down, you see many people choking their lungs on the sheesha there. Then Marie decided to go to a costume shop somewhere there. IT WAS SO COOL LAH. Halloween and superhero costumes. Scary masks. Giant mascots. Cool magician, cowboy hats and many more. Awesome shit right! Haha me and Aly decide to get scary costumes from there and go scare Marie next year on Halloween. HEEHEEHEE. After that, we took some photos and headed back home alr. It was a tiring day today, walking everywhere. But super fun! I love exploring places. NEXT STOP.. CHINATOWN! Aren't we sucha multi racial bunch of people? (:

DAD'S BUGGING ME TO GO WATCH BATMAN WITH HIM NOW!

TIME TO BOUNCE GUYS!

BYEBYE!

Eugenia Liew Wan Yi,

I MISS YOU )''':

2008-12-02T21:28:00.003+08:00

"Not everyone wake to see the sun."

Justin's current to-do-list:

Get the xbox360! - [DONE]

Be the Master Chief in Halo 3 to save the universe from evil - [DONE]

Save mankind from genocidal monsters in Gears of War 2 - [DONE]

Buy more xbox games like Dead Space, FEAR.. - [FINANCIAL DIFFICULTY]

Pack up my disastrously filthy and messy room - [DONE]

Find a job to earn some quick bucks - [PENDING]

My internet's pretty screwed up.

It took me some time to get this post done due to shitty disconnections.

Haha as you can see.. I've been glued to my dearest xbox360 for the past few days.

I've completed my games, and yes I neeeeed more badly.

But I'm tight on cash. So sighhh, gotta take some time to save up.

Euge just flew off ytd night to Hokkaido.

I was so glad to get her msg just now that she has safely landed and checked into the hotel!

But the thing is.. I MISS HER TO FRICKING BITS )'':

She'll be back on 7th and I'm away to Taiwan on the 11th.

Fuck, there always has to be a schedule collision.

I await for her next msg, no idea when will she text me ):

2008-11-30T17:30:00.003+08:00

SORRY GUYS HAVEN'T BEEN BLOGGING

JUST RECENTLY GOT MY XBOX360 :D

HALO 3 AND GEARS OF WAR 2 IS SEXXX

HEEHEE ANYBODY WANNA SPONSOR GUITAR HERO FOR ME

I NEED A JOB SO I CAN BUY MORE GAMES

ANYONE CAN INTRO MEE PLZZZZZZZZ

2008-11-22T11:25:00.003+08:00

"You should've been prom queen, little sister!"

Sorry haven't been blogging much.

Haha as you know the hols are here, and I'm a couch potato at times.

My prom was just 3 days ago. It was a mediocre event.

Overall honestly saying, IT SUCKED. Only enjoyed the company of friends.

And the flashing of cameras from every direction. Haha.

Well, everyone's a star on their graduation night (:

Dammit, I just lost a great job.

IT fair at the end of this month, no vacancy.

SHIT SHIT SHIT. The pay's good you know.

I need a job, but I don't want like a full time thingy.

MAJOR SHOCK MAJOR SHOCK

I watched HSM 3 ytd! I can't believe it..

Haha it was like watching brokeback mountain.

Euge wanted to catch it badly, so I watched it with her.

But in return, I can choose any movie she have to watch with me (:

2008-11-11T19:53:00.004+08:00

HOORAH!

I'M FREEEEEE

FREEEE AS A FUCKING BIRD

CAN YOU FEEL THE FREEDOM WITHIN THE GRASP OF YOUR FINGERTIPS?

HELL YEAHHHHH!

Os ARE FINALLY OVERRR FOR GOOOD!

2008-10-28T11:31:00.003+08:00

Time flies.. as usual.

Os are coming to a gradual end.

I can imagine, the faces of joy painted on everybody faces the moment all these is over.

Haha. Don't you agree?

Anyway today's a mugging day for physics.

Hopefully tml's paper will go easy on us.

I don't really get along with physics that well.

And darn, maths paper was like.. err..

stepping on a fucking land mine.

Blown into bits.. smithereens.

Total screw-up.

2008-10-20T17:12:00.004+08:00

HEY GUYZZZZZ

CHEM PAPER DOWN (:

I'M KINDA SCARED I MADE QUITE A FEW MISTAKES,

BUT OH WELLS IT'S OVER.

I JUST HOPE FOR THE VERY BEST IN THE END.

22 MORE DAYS TO GO..

TILL HARDCORE PARTYING!

2008-10-16T22:23:00.002+08:00

Gosh ytd night is one of the most fucked up nights ever.

I was so afraid I wasn't able to take my prac exam today.

Started running a high fever out of a sudden, plus vomiting.

Constant barfing, like every 10 to 15 fucking mins.

I felt totally bilious. It must have been the teppanyaki for dinner..

I had to head to the 24hr clinic 2am in the morning and got a jab.

Luckily I felt much better today morning.

Can't wait for my xbox360 after the Os!

Can't wait can't wait can't wait.

I need Halo3, Guitarhero, Gears of war 2, Dead space, Saints Row 2..

And if I heard Wii is selling cheap in Taiwan.

I'm going to hunt for it when I'm going there during Dec.

2008-10-09T15:17:00.003+08:00

"Can you feel tingle of fear dripping down

The worries of your mind crushing through your bones

Paranoia consuming your inner self like a parasite

The world turning colder with every tick of the clock

See the smiles of the crowd becoming frowns

You feel like death has been stalking you"

The Os are next week. I was shocked that it arrived so fast.

I've been studying everyday, and I feel worn out.

And I don't seem to have the appetite today too.

Maybe it's cause I've been shuffing too many pills down my throat for the past few days.

I'm glad it works, my fever and flu has subside.

Oh what the heck, back to the torment of studying.

God please help me.

2008-10-06T12:59:00.002+08:00

"I would die for you, baby"

I'm down with a fever. Of all the time, it had to be now.

My Os are closing in, and I'm scared I can't focus in studying.

Pray for me to have a speedy recovery, I feel awfully weak.

Oh yeah, Euge's coming to visit me later (:

Can't wait for Os to be over.

I want my xbox360 so badly.

Halo3 and guitarhero is the sex.

2008-09-29T18:29:00.003+08:00

"We've got miles to go ahead,

But don't you worry my dear,

With our hearts ablazed,

And hands intertwined,

I'll be running this race with you,

Till the end."

Anybody catched the F1 race?

Well, I did.. on tv and also, live!

My dad has friends from overseas who came to watch.

And I crashed their hotel room ytd to get a first-hand perspective of the race.

I got to see the race from the 45th storey of their hotel room balcony!

Not quite a big fan of F1 though, but it was pretty exhilarating.

The awesome night view, bright-litted tracks, roaring of the cars as they speed..

Haha the crowd below looked like ants scattered everywhere.

Anyway I'm glad Alonso took the first place (round of applause pls)

And sad little Massa screwed up big time ytd and got his ass last place (giggling)

Massa you are one 'smart' fella aren't you.

I didn't go school today again. I was too tired to even wake up.

Just spend my day studying in the morning and afternoon.

It sounds boring doesn't it? Face it, I've got no choice.

Everyone's freaking out for the Os, and thats just the way it is.

Mug mug mug, all the way.

Adriana Lima is smacking DROP DEAD GORGEOUSLY HOT.

2008-09-25T22:21:00.004+08:00

Meet Cupcake. Haha Euge gave it to me that day.

It's pretty cute. It's a birthday care-bear (:

Anyway I've been mugging like nuts these days.

Well can't help it, when Os is like in abt 21 days.

Kinda sick of going to school nowadays.

F it I just hate the part of waking up early.

I think studying at home at my own comfort works for me.

But my tcher called me today, and yeah obviously, she wants me in school.

Haha check this out. 2 words. Fucking cool.

2008-09-20T00:24:00.007+08:00

BOY OH BOY, ONCE AGAIN ANOTHER YEAR FLASHED BY AN INSTANT!

AND KA-BOOM-SHA-ZAM, I'M SEVENTEEN ALR!

I WANNA THANK ALL MY LOVELY FRIENDS, FAMILY & LOVE ONES THAT HAVE WISHED ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

I LOVE YOU ALL <3

Time for an update guys. Kinda long since I've blogged.

Prelims have been a mess, results aren't looking so good.

I'm panicking like hell right now, cos I'm left with 3 wks before the Os.

My mum pretty much gave me a tongue lashing or in a nicer term, advice.

I've really gotta sit my ass down and start working on those books.

Tick-tock-tick-tock. Time is sucha evil thing.

Somebody invent a time machine please.

2008-09-06T10:22:00.003+08:00

URGHHH MOTHERFUCKING MALAY SKATERS GO FUCK YOUR FUCKING SELF DICKWATTS I SHOULD'VE SET YOUR FUCKING CAR ON FIRE AND MAKE YOU KNEEL BEFORE US AND KOWTOW NBKNNCCB MAY YOU GET RAM AND RUNOVER BY A BUS FUCKFACES

2008-09-05T11:03:00.004+08:00

"City lights flashed past our very eyes,

Clouds in the sky took its' turns of black and white,

Cars sped through the bustling streets like race cars,

People scurried around the place like laborious ants in a colony,

Every blink of an eye, you see the world changing."

Sorry guys haven't been blogging this whole week.

Well I'm suppose to study, but not much is done actually.

I've been playing and slacking my ass off. (THIS IS BAD)

So I'm gonna have tuition tonight to make up for all the laziness.

And maybe the weekends shall even be devoted to studying.

(Stop lying to yourself)

Prelims are pretty much screwed at the rate I go.

Os are abt in a months' time. I can't seem to get my momentum of studying.

I need to find that spark of motivation and sense of urgency again.

2008-08-21T23:12:00.005+08:00

Oliver Skyes Of BMTH is so fucking cool.

I can't stand it. I'll give up my whole world, just to be him.

Most of you should know, I'm a huge fan of hardcore music.

And O-M-G, Bring Me The Horizon has a new album, Suicide Season!

I wanna get my hands on it I wanna get my hands on it.

Errrr.. Haha my birthday's coming. (hint hint)

2008-08-19T23:33:00.002+08:00

"The spark of intimacy and closeness,

Our eyes glazed across in passion,

With warmth blissfully embracing."

Finally I got to see euge today!

I missed her like hell. We didn't meet for the past 1 wk plus.

These days, everything's ransacked by studies studies and studies.

Oh wells, around 1 more month to go. Keep pushing.

Today was fun (: Went to pick her up, then we had a nice dinner at my place.

Haha we fried chicken and eggs, she made noodles, I made rice.

Suppose to have tuition today actually, but I postponed.

Another good news too, my dnt coursework is finishing soon!

I'm so glad lah. But left with certain admin work to do.

2008-08-14T19:55:00.003+08:00

Nowadays I feel like studies has taken control of me.

My mind feels awfully congested and heavy.

Maybe I'm stressing myself too much.

Well, what do you expect, prelims and Os are arriving.

Not to mention, I screwed up my chinese. And thats demoralizing enough.

Nonetheless I'm still pushing myself as hard as I could.

But fatigue sets in every single day.

I'm just sometimes too tired to focus on my work at all.

My DNT coursework has been leeching up my energy and time.

For the past 2-3 weeks, I've been staying back daily to do.

And by the time I reach home, I'm dead tired.

I'm just glad I've got friends and love ones there to give me moral support.

Time's running out.

& I'm dying out.

Good-bye.

2008-08-10T10:14:00.010+08:00

"I'll be the one for you,

Your one and only."

080808, a memorable day, and a pretty nice date too.

My first year anniversary and the starting of the Olympics!

Haha headed to Sushi Tei at raffles with euge for our dinner.

Had to wait like for roughly 40 mins before seated, it's always packed.

And *poof, the next min we're suddenly in dorothy perkins, topshop, miss selfridge and what have you..

Well, my dear princess can't live without her shopping. Haha.

After she bought her pretty skirt, I was called with our seats finally available.

By that time, it was around 9 and we were starving!

Haha I think I could've ate all the sushi on the conveyor belt.

Whooo no school tml, how great to be able to sleep in on a monday.

Fuck, I've got chinese tuition later. How effing b-o-r-i-n-g can that be.

If I didn't have it, I'll be out on a double date alr.

Ian & Shu + Me & Euge = Double date

Hahaha coooool right.

2008-08-04T23:53:00.003+08:00

"Watch the world fade into crimson petals,

Cold gush of frosty air breaking its way through,

Silence besieging the dreary forbidding atmosphere,

Blistered bloody skies threatened from above,

Slowly close your eyes and take a gentle leap,

Falling from grace deep down to an end of a journey,

It's an epitome of vivid bitterness."

2008-07-28T18:55:00.002+08:00

Hit the pause button.

Yes, pause for a moment please.

I need a break from all these crazy studies and heavy work.

Life's been a bitch, a baaaaad bad bitch.

I'm feeling awfully tired from today's hectic schedule.

I've got a pending dnt coursework to be due in 2-3 weeks time.

A flood load of science papers needed to be completed by Os.

Many SS essays which are waaaay over the dateline.

Homework just keeps getting more and more.

Test test test, every week also tests. NO LIFE AH. (fuck it's true)

But if I don't practice or study, I can get ready an admission to ITE.

Which is obviously a hell NOOOO.

Because.. Ngee Ann Poly, I'm coming for you.

Those of you out there who feel the same way as I do right now,

or has the upcoming nightmare of the Os,

you should understand what I mean.